Chapter 106: Decisions that i made!

Decisions that i made!

I was angry again. I became moody suddenly then i walked in after watching my mother drive away in a white Benz, Gianna came forth with a glass of water while i sat on the couch, heart broken.

  "Here sir!" She said handing it over to me

  "Are you serious right now? I don't want no water...get some gin not...this?!" I said defiantly in distaste, i was not angry her but at my current situations. 

  "I think water is better off this time." She insisted. I took the glass of water then she turned to leave, i called her.

  "Gia! Did you listen to our conversation?" I had to ask

  "Ye...No..." She stuttered

  "Gia!" 

  "Yes sir, i did! I did not want to but it was not a silent one." Gia defended herself before i could ask any further questions. I looked at her not knowing what to say again.

  "What do you think? The whole thing?" I asked her, i just wanted to hear her suggestions anyways. "Come sit next to me!" Maybe I was asking for too much but to me, its power.

She sat as instructed then she began like she's been waiting for my questions.

  "I think Madam has a better responsibility for all of this. She's...She's only being a mother and that's what i think you got to understand!" She spoke boldly, i smiled faintly

  "You think so? Its hard to fall in love with someone you despise, do you know that too?" I asked again

  "Yes but i mean...you could slowly upturn that hate into something very meaningful...like loving that person in return." She stopped as she rubbed her neck slowly but maintained her position, she couldn't look me into the eye because I was staring at her intensely. She speaks intelligently, i really didn't know that people out there could be super intelligent like myself. I grew up around people who knew everything and I had to compete to make my name special which included my youthful exorbitance. How could i be emotionally attached to an ordinary maid, i mean, this is something people around me may not forgive.

  "That's smart! You say it like its easy!" I said simply

  "You could give a try!" She added

  "Do you want me married?" I turned to her finally holding her knuckles. She was shocked definitely not expecting this. Something was driving me into this feeling. She looked confused, she was lost for words but i just needed to find out if she liked me like i did.

  "Sir! I would like you to get married but I'm in no place to decide that for you, I'm only a maid working to make a hay!" She said correctly, i smiled. 

  "I don't..." I began then the door opened. Lorraine walked in  black lacy gown that had thicker coverage at the sensitive areas, this is more like seduction than impression. She caught me holding unto my servants' knuckles. I did not care about that but Gianna took off her hands hastily as she stood up as well.

  "Welcome ma'am!" Gianna greeted as Lorraine came forth in anger

  "What the hell is going on?" She asked, she sounded sad

  "What's going on?? What did you see going on!" I answered disrespectfully to Lorraine, my reaction was unexpected to her.

  "No baby, don't talk to me like that before this..." She turned to Gianna whose face was glued downwards. "...Slut you call a maid. Now she offers a personal home service...to you?" 

  "Don't talk to her that way, Lora, neither would you talk to me like that!" I scolded straightening up.

  "Over her? Jordan, over her?" Lorraine asked yelling too.

Gianna excused herself walking away silently, she was hurt but Lorraine's words definitely. Lorraine held out her hand trying to hit me on the face.

  "Don't even think about it!" I warned putting down her hand. "What did you tell my mother after all? That i had intentions to get married to you? What we had was a Deal and you tried to play a fast one on me huh?!" I asked her

   "Whatever it is, Jordan, we're getting married soon whether or not you like it!" She scolded "You can't have me fly over here to get cut picked on, Jordan, Its not happening any time soon." She instructed

  "Of course, Lorraine, we would!" I turned then i sighted Gianna against the wall at the corner listening, she was dismayed at my affirmations to get married to Lorraine, i watched her run to her room, unknowingly to her i was watching and i wondered why such reactions.

  "Are you sure about this?" Lorraine asked interrupting my thoughts, she crept on me from behind, wrapping her arms around me.

  "Isn't that what you want? Why on earth do you care?" I asled coldly. I had a plan in mind.

  "Jordan?" She turned to my face immediately "You know i love you right? From the depth of my heart and I'm willing to do anything to make this wish of mine come through, you know that! I just feel lucky around you, baby!"

She saud sweetly all in the act of seduction. Gianna came forth instantly like someone that had been listening to me. 

  "Excuse Sir. Ma'am! I'll be out for some groceries, would you like anything else..." She inquired

  "Yeah i'd like you to..." I began as Lorraine interrupted

  "Ok then, Gianna! Take your time!" 

 Gianna nodded respectfully and walked away scurried away. I was unintentionally staring Gianna as Lorraine turned my gave to hers instantly.

  "Baby! Im really sorry ok, can we just...make up? Please Jordan! You rejected me once and i wouldn't want that from you again, if you do I'd kill myself...." Her voice was breaking already, i was weakened by that.

  "Lora C'mon, lets talk about this..." I tried to persuade her

  "No Jordan, don't say a word! I'll fight for us instead...there's alot that i could do, just say yes to me..." She persuaded caressed my body entirely, i was tingled.

I headed for the kitchen to drink some gin, that was my consoler. I took the bottle and glass upstairs leaving her behind.

 Few seconds later, she came in and then closed the door behind her. She walked  towards my direction while i was drinking so much sitting on the bed, i wanted to get drunk again for reasons i couldn't tell exactly.

She unzipped her gown still staring at me then I called out

  "Lorraine? What's that for? Put on your clothes!" I cautioned but she fell on deaf ears

  "No Jordan! You have to make love to me, i have waited so long for this...don't push me away again. I know you don't love me and you don't hate me either so..." She explained, if she knew then why throwing herself at me right now, i thought to myself.

  "Lorraine what are you doing? Just stop it ok? Lets talk..." I walked a step toward her as she pushed me back to the bed. She finally took of her clothe leaving a bare body to its exposure.

  "Anything Jordan, I'll do it gladly. Just tell me!" She whispered into my ears, caressing my whole body. Her fingers ran from my face to my chest then stopped around at my waist line. l was heated but the more i pushed her away the more she gets attached. I felt like i was ambushed and trapped into an erotic asylum. 

How do i get rid of this woman before me, i wished that some magic would make her vanquish but no, nothing of such coukd happen right now. I fell into the trap set up for me. She calls it love while i call it a lust trap then i held her up by the arms, her eyes were covered in want, she wanted me really bad and i was slowly giving into her desires not what i wished for. If it were my seductress or Gianna i would gladly start the engine but in this situation, it was Lorraine at my feet.

She wouldn't stop staring into my eyes intensely and i couldn't take off my gaze after so many tries, she helped taking off my shirt and then i reached for her lips, i could feel the heat that had erupted suddenly. Before a word could be spilled out, we collided on the bed and there, the undeniable. 

Few minutes after,

Lorraine rested her head on my chest while entangled her hair on my fingers. She was so excited about everything that happened minutes ago but i wasn't, i was compelled to which i regretted afterwards. I'm a man not a machine, my nuts got loosed in the process of holding up.

  "You are awesome baby, you made my dream come true! Do you know how excited i am about this....this is the best sex ever!...." Lorraine stated then i interrupted instantly

  "....Can we not talk about this? Please? Thank you!" I turned away. It sounded irritating to me.

  "But Jordan..." She tried to speak then i yelled

  "Get the hell out of my house....like now!" I flared

I pushed her aside not minding if she was comfortable or not. I hopped down from the bed hastily wearing a gray sweats pant on the couch while she wrapped the sheets around her chest. I threw her clothes at her, she looked confused wondering the cause of this reaction suddenly

  "Can i at least shower?" Lorraine adked politely

  "Yeah whatever! Just get the hell out of my coupe and don't try to show up ever again...i warned ya!" I yelled at her

  "Jordan?" She moved closer trying to clam me down "Can we at least talk? Lets talk about..."

  "...About what exactly? When i asked for a talk did you listen or not? See! 'Coz you got what you wanted. Now i ain't wanna talk...all i want is for you to get out through that door, out of my life." I explained furiously

  "Jordan please, we can make this work; just give us some time...some chances... I actually thought you wanted this too, i didn't know that you'd be upset over this. Im sorry Jordan, can you at least think about this please? Im pleading...." She said

  "Lora? If you ain't going out of this house, I'll call the cops on you!" I fired back

  "Jordan? Why are humiliating me this way? All i ever did was love you...my intentions are pure, so what's going on? Do you have someone in your life already? I want to know. I deserve to know!" She yelled back

  "So what if you know? What would eventually happen? Hmm?" I asked sternly

  "You know i won't accept that. I sacrificed alot to make it here...." She pointed out. 

  "Did i ask for it? Do you really want this? What our parents projected, is that what you want?" I asked her.

She was quiet. I guess my question sunk into her mind, we were practically doing what our parents projected for us. It was a bond tightening charade than a neutral relationship.

I didn't want to act rudely towards her but i needed a reason for her to leave as soon as she could. She seemed hurt. I ignored her impressions, i just wanted her out of my life for good, at least i wanted a situation where i could work  things out for myself. I've never worked hard to win a woman over without flaunting my wealth, so i wanted to be myself and then finally love someone neutrally without loving me for my wealth in return.

Our  parents worked hard to strengthen the relationship between both families but i wanted the opposite, living my life just as Darkie and i had projected.

Lorraine wore her clothes ignoring the bath, my words got her stunk. She took her purse looking at the dresser's mirror then she sighted a golden sprayed box where i had my bracelet kept. The bracelet Darkie gave to me years ago

  "Why are you still keeping this? She's one of the reasons why i can't still have you to myself." She turned to me "That's why i hate her. I hate every girl coming around you. If i can't have you..." She came forth rubbing my face gently "...Then no one can. You'll regret everything you just did to me. Mark my words!" She turned to leave

  "No one apologizes for sex, right? So i wouldn't apologize to you for nothing! You should know me by now. Have you ever wondered why I've always hated you? You irritate me! You and i can never have a thing going on! Mark my words too?!" I said then i walked to the bathroom for a bath.

I heard a soft knock on the door, then Gianna's voice.

  "Hi ma'am! Lunch is ready!" Gianna said politely. I walked out of the bathroom with a towel tied around my waist. I stood behind without Lorraine noticing or maybe she did. Gianna turned to leave then Lorraine stopped her.

  "And you, such a slut like you should not be here, do you realize that? I guess you are the reason Jordan's mad at me right?!" Lorraine stared at her in distaste

  "No ma'am. I have nothing to do with him! I swear on my mother's grave!" She spoke almost confidently

  "That's the problem, i don't care about you or your mother. I see the way he looks at you, the way he defends and cares for you." She scoffed then continued "I just can't wait see you leave this house or if that can't happen, I'll make your life terrible that you wouldn't know what suits you best. That's a promise!" Lorraine threatened

  "Really Lora? Threatening a maid?" I asked calmly, she went too far this time. 

  "Still defending her!" Lorraine said without turning to me, she left. Gianna turned to leave as well then i stopped her.

  "Gia!"

  "I'm sorry sir, for everything. I have come to inform you about lunch. Its served!" She spoke softly, she was getting emotional. 

  "I'll be there in a minute." I said then i left.

 I showered finally then i wore a black sweats pants and decided to stay shirtless, one of my bad habits that mother would always be against. I headed downstairs then i got a text from father, he demanded that we meet up at golf at 4pm. It was one of our usual sport most weekends then i got another from my buddies, i remembered that we arranged for a timeout at Lamar's house, its what we do every weekends talking over shots and smokes and at the same time discussing on how to plan ahead the future professionally, socially, mentally , physically and emotionally. I walked to the kitchen but found no one just the lunch dished out. I searched for Gianna but i couldn't find her anywhere close so i thought about her room, definitely there.