Chapter 131 Sub 17
Longing for something impossible!
03:35pm,
I pressed the door bell instead and Jane came through, the first thing she did was hug me. I was partly amazed because we've donr that before, i mean its a employer and employee relationship, strictly professional.
"I'm really sorry sir, i was over excited! Forgive me!" She jabbered innocently
"Its all ok, i'm here because you contributed! Thanks a lot Jane!" I added icily. "Where's my wife?"
"She's upstairs, she must be longing to see you!"
"A'ight!"
I scurried up the stairs then i opened the bedroom's door gently, i sighted Gia laying under the white sheets. My heart calmed, i assumed she was asleep. I closed the door then started in her way and stopped in front of her, i squatted. I was grinning in excitement that my seductress, stripper and wife had returned home. She adjusted to sit up and then i figured that she had been sobbing silently, my brightened mood turned cold.
"Babe?!" I cupped her jaw but she refrained defiantly. She was silent, staring at me questionably while tears rolled down her cheeks, she seemed pale but i wasn't worried about her paleness, she still was pretty, incomparably. "Babe! You don't know how excited i am to see you right now..." I hugged her forcefully and swiftly then i tried to kiss her, she hit my face instead. I couldn't get pissed at her. "I love you Gia, i'm overly glad to have you home." I confessed regardless. She walked towards the dresser then i got a full view of her, her silky black sleeveless mini gown drive me nuts, she stared at her reflection in the large mirror.
"Jordan?" She called then i added a few steps, still behind her. "I want a divorce..." I didn't let her finish
"...A divorce?" I smiled tightly then turned her to face me, i was a bit hard on her. I was furious. "You're not divorcing me, neither of us is leaving and that's final!" I instructed
"You are out of you damn mind! You still got the guts to decline a simple request after everything you did to me?" She asked folding her arms
"Gia, i'm sorry. Im really sorry that you had to through all of this...punish me all you want but don't try to leave me..." I blurted out
"Of course Jordan, if i have to stay then you'd hate me instead." She sat on the edge of the bed breathing heavily. I took a chair to sit in front of her.
"Gia! I had no idea Tiana was your friend...if i had known then i wouldn't let her come home or anywhere close babe, i wouldn't." I explained slightly yelling, i wanted her to understand me.
"Why didn't you tell me? You had forever to say something Jordan, i feel like a fool right now. You disgust me!" She yelled at me "You should have told me then i wouldn't insist on her staying. No wonder you were unnecessarily angry at her, the rudeness, the unruly words...now i get the whole thing but you didn't stop there, you both had a child that no one knew about. Now i also understand why you were overly defensive over Lamar's scandal, only a cheater would react the way you did." She blurted outrightly
"What the hell Gia, stop saying shit!" I yelled defensively "If i had an interest, wouldn't i react or make moves under your very nose?" I stated
"That you already made?! You raped her...and still tried to kill her..." She blurted disrespectfully. I felt overly infuriated at her distrust, i actually thought that she'd believe me not like the others.
"Do you expect me to admit to something that's not true, like having a child i knew nothing about? Gia, i've never kept secrets ever since we got married, i wanted to tell you everything and unfortunately you had a rough time! I'm surprise that you think I'd ever rape or try to kill someone. You are hiding something too right? You disgust me right now!" I stood walking towards the closet.
"Yes Jordan, we both irritate each other and i don't want you getting under my skin either, we are getting divorced, Jordan!" She added firmly
"Ok! That's cool! Good for both of us!" I accepted without contempt.
"You'll get the papers soon, just a few days and we'd be over each other for good!" She added again then began to pack her clothes.
"Whatever Gia, go ahead!" I snapped. "I can't believe this is what i get in return! I've been dying to see you like you were the only thing that mattered, and this is how you treat me?" I cautioned
"What were you expecting, that i'd wait for your cheating and lying ass to come home to me? Did you expect me be cool with that? No sensitive woman would!" She blurted yelling
"You got the right to be angry but not divorcing me for something i clearly can't place my hands on! I didn't cheat on you so stop painting it all black!" I said
"Your explanation means nothing to me Jordan," she blurted
"You are not leaving and i'm not stopping you either!" I cringed. I walked to the door, i locked the door then flushed the keys into the toilet. She was shocked at my actions. "Leave if you can!" I added sarcastically
"What the hell is wrong with you Jordan, open the damn door!" She instructed yelling almost crazily, she stopped packing
"Do i have to repeat myself Gia, neither of us is leaving!" I smirked. "You can't have me fall in love with you, get married to you and then all you want is a divorce; it doesn't work for me. You'd be stuck with me for the rest of your life, babe! Take it ot leave it!" I clarified, she didn't expect such reaction. I've longed to see this woman survive and what she wants can not have an effect on me because i wouldn't give in. "Its either you sit your ass down let's have an honest conversation or we both get stuck in this room."
"Do you think I'd buy this craziness, I'd leave first thing at dawn!" She stated sternly
"Right after you've listened to what I've got to say to you, deal?" I added unbordered
"Do i have a choice? What do you do when a shark pierces your throat!" She shrugged, that statement was crazy to me.
All i wanted was for her to listen to me and afterwards she can do as she pleases, including leaving. I enteted the shower while she sat on the bed waiting for my return.
I took about fifteen minutes to shower, getting off the stenches of prison off my skin. My mind was fixated on making my marriage work just like my parents advised. I picked a black short out of the closet then i sat as well.
"Before we conclude it all, i'd like you to know that whatever you decide after now; i'd gladly accept it 'coz i love you so much!" I stated sternly then she attempted to talk but i stopped ger "Don't cut me out just yet, i'm still speaking Gia! I've been nothing but honest with you all my life but i wanna ask if you've been honest with me?!" I asked
"Jordan, what are you talking about? I don't understand!" She asked for more explanation, she seemed lost. I ignored her
"Don't try to lie to me babe, we are trying to be honest in here not lie..." I countered
"Just like you've been lying?" She snapped defensively
"Yes...just like that!" I answered sarcastically "I never ever cheated on you babe, i've been a faithful husband nothing more. The only thing i did wrong was not telling you about the history Tiana and i had which i fully regret. Im so sorry for keeping the truth away from you." I stated defensively
"You call lying 'only'? Lying is equal to cheating, Jordan! I can't forgive you for that, i won't!" She stated defiantly
"I'll give you the whole time in the world to forgive me Gia, i don't mind!" I declared "What are you keeping from me, Gia?" I couldn't wait to ask
"What exactly are you talking about? Do you have a problem?"
"Maybe you do!" I snapped. "Where on earth were you headed on that day?" I questioned
"I..I..Come on Jordan, is that even necessary? I mean..." She stuttered. She stood up abruptly yet restless.
"It's necessary, Gianna!" I added firmly
"When you left, i wanted to grab some stuff at the mall...so i.." She began still stuttering
"I instructed you to stay home, i specifically offered to get you anything you could possibly want. Be honest!" I insisted firmly
"Jordan, i..i really don't know what the big deal is. I headed out then i lost track of the brakes and then i lost consciousness...! Do you think..."
"Very good! I get it!" I snapped. She wasn't ready to tell me what exactly happened, i'd let it go to find out myself. I stood up to get a bottle of water from the refrigerator, i drank up instantly. "I'm only shocked that you disregard me regardless of everything we've through, you still judge me like everyone does!" I added
"So what's your point? Now she's got a child for you, what i couldn't give you Jordan 'coz of my past; she's got it. How do you expect me to feel, Jordan?" Her eyes watered but my problem was fixed on something different.
"I don't care...." I flared up
"So i can't stay, i want a divorce! I'm leaving first tomorrow morning, i won't go back on my words!"
"Great! Leave all you want, that's exactly what everyone did...they left!" I yelled up life out. Why wasn't she understanding my point, why! I felt hurt.
I dialed Jane to open the door because i couldn't her and her distrust and disloyalty.
Minutes later, Jane opened the door then i stormed out if the room holding unto my phone while Gianna stood still watching my actions. I was ready to get divorced. Formerly, i thought about my reputation and family being at stake but now i had bigger problems to solve and giving her what she wants wasn't a big problem outwardly.
The next morning,
I had a bad night bombarding and reminiscing. I walked into our bedroom as early as 7am. She was packing her luggage. She wouldn't give up, would she? I asked myself but i wasn't ready to go back on my words as well. We didn't talk or chuckle or kiss or hug or tease like we always do, it was devastating to me. I admit that i started this whole thing but i stand a chance to be understood, don't i?!
She was done packing her luggages then she stood before. She was breathtaking in rose gold sequin body con, her blonde ponytail was neatly tied yet she had no makeup on and still looked prettier.
"Jor..Jordan? I guess this is goodbye...my lawyer would get the papers across to you." She took off the ring and kept it beside me
"Take that with you, you can give it to anyone who's desperately in need of someone to get married to or not!" I blurted out negligently then threw the ring at her, she was shocked at my response and action.
"Ok!" She snapped blinking her eyes "I would take my leave!" She added
"That's the door, leave already! You'd miss your flight or whatever it is you are catching...just leave!" I ordered turning away.
She walked out briskly without turning back. 80% of me wanted to drag her back but 20% of me was against my timidity, i wouldn't call her back until she realises that we both need to forgive each other. I would let my haughtiness take charge over and over again, i hope not to plead. She slammed the door and it felt like my heart had broken into the tiniest pieces.