Chapter 163: Spotting the difference makes little or no sense!

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I gave Lamar a questionable look.

  "If Gianna would get executed then that's her call. She's executed me weeks ago, I've lived an unhappy man's life, lately. Doing what she did had traumatized me right now, I feel really unapologetic for my actions, good or bad!" I said

  "She's your wife!" Lamar added

  "So what happens if she's my wife? If she has a problem then we could at least talk about it. Every single time I start up  a conversation, she'd always push me away. Insult my existence like what we have is merely built on lies, I gave her everything, I gave her what a woman would pray for if given a chance. I sacrificed my whole for her, whether or not she wants me around I'd always tell her to her face how badly I loved her her and wanted her. I did what a real man would do for his woman. I loved Gia with everything I owned, o created a home for her, I let her do what she wanted with my accounts and businesses, my cars, assets, changed her personality into it's finest of all other women, she ranked in the highest places, I literally forced everyone into loving her, i gave her my all in all, even my heart. What else does this woman want from me that I haven't given her?" I explained them I turned away angrily, my frustration had risen again, what I tried to escape. I had to spill my mind, even times when everyone reminded me of  who she was from the onset. My friends were silent, I guess they were thinking like I was doing.

  "Don't take it out in yourself, it will only hurt you!" Lamar said in concern

  "No you don't get it, I wake up every morning to an empty home that was once filled with people I love, she took it all away for some crazy reasons. I don't care about her anymore, she can actually die for all I care, all i need are my sons 'coz this is betrayal." I stated "Do you know what it means to lose your entire family...your children? They look up to you and it all fades into something unexplainable."

  "Bro, calm down A'ight! Remembering the past wouldn't help, it would only salt your wounds and would hurt!" Jeff said

  "I'm compelled to do certain things I don't want to, she gave me no option than to fall into the deepest pits, she's caused enough damages. I just wanna search for my sons and that's enough credibility for me. Gia can go to hell with everything she's done!" I said standing up

  "That's right but you could at least find out what went wrong, maybe there's a reason..." Jeff said

  "Can someone not talk about her again?" I almost yelled "Please guys, can we just talk about this tomorrow? I don't feel like talking about it, is that okay?" 

  "Its okay!" They answered in unison

  "Thanks y'all! I've got to rest now, maybe I should see y'all off or you...might wanna pass the night!" I suggested then I remembered that they had families to return "Really sorry, I forgot about my princesses and their moms!" I teased as they smiled. They seemed worried, their faces could tell it. 

  "Are sure you can handle your shit around here? Alone?" Jeff asked

  "Or maybe you could crash at our place or better go to Yeesha's or the family house..." Lamar suggested

  "I appreciate but Kareem's not a child no more! Over thirty!" I reminded teasingly

  "Gianna's really got to pay for this shit! That's a promise!" Jeff added

  "That's right!" Lamar added too

They insisted that I didn't have to see them off, it was a lonely mansion again. I dismissed every employee except Jane who insisted by coming everyday to see me through and sometimes pass the night, I appreciated that gesture regardless.

I walked into the shower after taking my clothes, I turned on the shower as the water ran through my body, my head was aching very badly due to the oven thinking and stress I suppose. 

What hurts me more is the fact that everyone thinks they understand how I feel but they actually don't, they know nothing. Left in a cocoon without a clue or hint of what sort of mystery has been ongoing, I closed my eyes tightly with thoughts and echoes of people yelling and talking, chattering unexplainable words, everything turned into a puce.

My thoughts flew back to Nessa's apartment, I've not had not sex in a while now. In a nutshell, I was excited to have satisfied my sexual desires but my innermost desires was left hanging on air. What we had was kinda epic but my heart was purely not in that, my body acted magnificently but not my heart.

I heard my phone ringing from the bedroom then I walked out of the shower instantly taking the white towel along to dry up my body. I took a peep then I saw Nessa's call. How could I forget that girls who are into you are most likely to call you to know how you're faring, i don't do too well with communication but I read minds.

  "Hey Nessa! Sorry I did not call, I just got freed minutes ago. We had a lengthy conversation that's why!"

  "Oh c'mon, i get it damn well. I just thought that I should say goodnight before bed."

  "That's nice of an English sassy bad girl." I teased as she laughed out "Just got off the shower, what're you doing right now?" I asked as I activated the speaker so that I could dress for the night.

  "Uh! That's quite expected but wouldn't it be better If I was there? Like...getting into the shower, sexing under the flowing waters...sounds..." She opted

  "Sounds like 1600s epic romance." I teased and she laughed again. After I got dressed, I hopped on the bed instantly with my legs almost wantonly splayed. 

  "I wanna see your face, can I?" She asked

  "A'ight, hold on!" I snapped as we switched to a video call. 

  "You know, I was thinking about earlier on and on. One thing bothers me very badly..." She stirred up

  "Sounds serious. Something like what?"

  "About Gia..." She snapped as I expressed my dismayed feeling "Its not what you think, can you just hear me out? Okay! If Gianna left with your children then have thought about why she did that?"

  "Trust me, I've given it a thousand thought, literally everyone asks the same question. What are y'all thinking, that I don't care?" I asked giving an askant stare.

  "Its an obvious observation, I just thought that you could as well think about something."

  "Do you remember when you said that we actually don't get our responses to the questions we ask?"

  "Yeah I do!" She snapped as she adjusted on her bed, to give full attention to what I was going to say

  "This question is one of them. There's no answer to it!". I pointed out 

  "Oh no, don't use that against me. Anyway, you have my full support, I'd do all I can to make sure we find your boys as well as...your w..wife!" She said

  "Quite thoughtful! You didn't have to start up those forms and stuff, they weren't kidnapped or hijacked or something..." I explained "I saw the headlines, its twisted into a kidnap sort of thing...don't you think its detrimental?"

  "Its not! Look at it this way, I'm trying to create a sort of awareness, like...if there's a clue about your wife and children then it makes it easier."

  "Need I remind you that Gia allegedly walked away with my kids not kidnapped them? Her actions were voluntary not on impulse!" I stated outrightly as she thought of what to say in the next 7 seconds

  "Trust me Jordan, my intentions are pure. I was only creating awareness about..."

  "About what? Awareness for what, who looks like danger to you?" I asked

  "Jordan, don't take it that way..."

  "'Cause i don't get it, you're kinda passing the wrong message out there. They'd think differently about Gia and trust me, its not a good impression!" I cautioned, spilling my mind seemed important. She was sad and skeptical 

  "Are you trying to say that I'd harm your wife and sons?" She asked disappointedly

  "Maybe we shouldn't talk about this anymore, its suffocating." I stated after noticing her intentions, I need to make her feel very comfortable because I don't trust her either.

  "Jordan, you're too direct so could lower your...you know....I want that sweet man at my condo earlier!" She teased, we laughed. "Oh gosh, you're freaking sexy!!! Did you take a good look at your entire body, it's a killer one. And not just that, you're huge, meaty  and long....Oh my! Jordan, your body is mind blowing. I just wish I could keep you to myself forever!" She teased, I blushed firmly.

   "Don't be so sure, girl!" I teased "its pretty late right now and I've a meeting tomorrow, I really got to crash!" I said

  "I know! I'd be hosting tomorrow by noon!" She snapped "Goodnight, my love" she said but I remained silent "Don't say it if  you don't want to! Bye honey!" She hung up

  "Oh man!" I heated a deep sigh as I stretched to switch off the lights.

One thing baffled me, she created forums to help find Gia and my boys but the drive behind it was like chasing after an abductor but she claims that it had nothing to do with at intention. I really didn't want to think about Gia but she'd always remain the mother of my children, which makes her important.

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At the office:

  "Let him in!" I said to my secretary as she informed me a man here to see me, claiming that disclosing his identity would the ruin surprise. I was curious to see this weirdo, who claims to have a surprise. What could I possibly expect when nothing surprises me at the moment, I thought in silence. The secretary entered then came Garry. Garry! No way. He smiled broadly but it seemed like sarcasm.

  "You may leave, please!" I dismissed the secretary, she left closing the door behind her. Garry offered himself a seat opposite as he unbuttoned the his grey suit, he grinned before I said a word.

  "Hello, Mr Jordan!"

  "Garry!" I heaved a deep sigh then leaned backwards "Why are you here? We don't align in business neither are we friends, so what coincided?"

  "Nothing coincides, my friend! Don't feel some type of way, I'm here to see you personally..." He said then I interrupted

  "Your appearance breaks my heart every single time!" I snapped "Why are you here?" I leaned forward resting my hands on the venetian mahogany desk.

  "Accept my sympathy. I heard about your abrupt missing family, dreadful I suppose. How did it all happen?" He asked, speaking with a fake sense of humor

  "Don't act like you care, you're undoubtedly one of the few that hate to see my happy family..."

  "I admit. You have managed to divert Gia's attention away from me but karma is a sort of bitch anyway, she comes lurking and knocking at your door."

  "Do you have anything reasonable to at all, you're wasting my time here Garry, I have a thousand to work on. Time is money, you know that!" I stated

  "Alright, not to waste your time. It's been weeks since your family disappeared, have you ever wondered why?" He began 

  "Why wouldn't I?" I cringed

  "And you moved on with that perky journalist right?"

  "What do you mean by that?" I got pissed then he smiled

  "You're a perfect future for her but she's not a perfect fit for you!" 

  "Could you hit the point?" I demanded "What exactly is all these about?"

   "Over the time, we wrestled over Khaleed...your son," he air quoted sarcastically "and don't think it ends there. I wouldn't let you have it served on a platter for ruining everything about me...as well as my plans!"

  "You better not act stupid 'coz i'd not let you breath any further!"

  "At this point, you can do nothing! I'm all you need to regain redemption, believe it or not!" He blurred out confidently. I chuckled.

  "That's a crap! You ate just about another opposition, i don't need you!" I stated in confidence too.

  "That's where your problem lies, the haughtiness. You have got you answers next to you but your...lustful desires hides every hint from you." He rose to his feet to button the suit while my eyes scanned his expression, he was too confident and certain. Could he get telling the truth, I thought.

  "Don't be so sure about your conceptions about the physical Kareem, you know nothing! Absolutely nothing!"

  "Time will tell!" He turned to leave then stopped as though he had changed "You know, I've never for once liked you but when the a party doesn't get served, what do you do expect! Conspiracy!"

He walked to door as he grabbed the knob

  "I may and may not use your hints, either way makes no difference. Next time you drop by, come with a little more tangible info, you might just laugh out last!" I stated interlacing my fingers with a smirk then he shrugged a bit walking out of the office.

If Garry could come around to talk indirectly about Nessa then something should be wrong. I try to conjoin his words 'CONSPIRACY, LUSTFUL DESIRES and PARTIES'. These words clutched their wings at grip, he could either pass message or confuse me. I had to make an offer in order to get to him, he may have shrugged at my offer but Garry will return sooner or later but before then I'd not give up on finding my sons.

I took up my phone then searched for the one of the Mafia's associate what works for me when I urgently want a job done and closed.

  "BJ! Let's meet at my penthouse, now!...A'ight!" I hung up. I sprang up on my feet instantly, closed the computer then I took my phone and headed out confidently of the office. I stopped at the secretary's office.

  "I'd be leaving for an hour, withhold any further meeting till I return!"

  "Yes sir! On it!" She snapped then sipped on the core next to her while her colleague blurted out underneath her breath with her eyes locked on me.

  "Your boss is damn hotter! What the hell?!" 

I walked away with a stern look.

  "Keep your eyes off, He's got a wife and kids...and trust me, women worship him!"

  "Don't you feel some kinda thing for him? The way he talks, walks, smiles..."

  "Do I have a choice! Anyways, keep your eyes off!"