Chapter 98

Chapter 98

I looked at my doctor with tears in my eyes at this point in my life, the only option let for me is to open up to my family. "I'm really sorry about this but on the bright side, you can make things right in your home and anywhere you think you have made some mistakes. Now that you are aware of the time you have left on this earth, I would advise you to take things slowly and enjoy these few months you have left in your life", my doctor replied looking so sad about my present predicament, it's really unfortunate though and there is absolutely nothing that I can do to change my situation but I can only mend some broken holes in my life, "Thank you doctor, I will take you advice and fix up my life. Thanks for all the things you have done for me during this few years.

  I left the doctor's office with tears in my eyes, some of the nurses around noticed that all was not well with the way my eyes turned red with tears gathering underneath it. "Sir is there any problem, why are you crying?", one of the nurse asked after walking to me to find out what was wrong, "There is nothing wrong dear, just got a call for something urgent and it's quite sad and stressful for me" I replied and walked away as fast as I could so that i won't get anymore questions from her because I'm not in the mood to even talk to anyone right now because I would just crying like a little baba. A text came to my phone and when I opened it, I found out that it was a message from my wife, "Baby where are you. I don't like the way you just left the house without even letting me know, I know you may not find it necessary to tell me but just know that I'm not happy with this action of yours", her message reads.

If only this lady has an idea of what I'm passing through right now, she won't even talk like this. I went straight to my car and drove back home with a heavy heart, how on earth will I explain this to Andrew, they will be shocked beyond words. On getting to the living room, I met the maids and when I asked if my wife was at home, she told me that she left the house few hours ago. With a heavy heart, I went straight to my room with two bottles of Hennessy, let me drink all my sorrows away because there is no point living when I know when I will eventually die.

  "Sir, please is anything wrong?", my maid asked while she barged into my room without permission, "And who told you to come in?", I asked looking so confused, angry and depressed, "I'm sorry sir but your face tells me that all is not well and your eyes are so red like someone who came back from a bloody war", she replied. Everyone is starting to know that something is wrong with me and I don't want anyone apart from my wife and son to know about my condition

"It's nothing, just get back to your duties and please alert me when my wife gets back", I replied while I sat down on my bed to think about my life. "She is already back and she is coming upstairs as we speak", she replied and quickly left the room. My wife walked in and was shocked to see me crying like a little baby whose candy was stolen, she couldn't even explain what was going on and she kept on staring at me in confusion while she tried to put her hands as to what she was seeing right now.

  "Honey, what is wrong with you today. First of all, you left the house without even let me know and now you are crying like a baby, what is happening to you?", she asked. I kept on crying without even paying attention to her question, if only it was that easy to explain to her, she walked to me and used her hands to clean my tears while giving me a warm kiss on the lips

"Baby, boo tell me what happened. I don't like to see you like this because it's hurts me badly", she said. I looked at her with my eyes so filled with tears, "Can you be able to hold back your emotions if I should reveal everything to you?", I asked so that I will be sure if she can take what's coming because my wife can be so emotional at certain points and I don't want her to create a scene that will attract the the maids and security guards.

  "I can take it dear, I'm with you till the end of time and it's only death that can separate us.", she replied. Her reply touched me so bad because death is about to take me away from the people I love and cherish with my whole heart and I started crying again without control. "Please stop crying, you are scaring me and I don't like it. Did you forget something in South Africa or did something bad happen in the company?", she asked with the hope that my problem was coming from those aspects that she mentioned.

"Those are not my problems at all, the company is moving fine and we are thriving with full force. I didn't forget anything in South Africa either but I want you to forgive me for hiding this secret from you when I should have mentioned it a long time ago, I made a big mistake by keeping it away from you and Andrew but promise me you that you won't freak out when I tell you", I asked trying to confirm if I can let the cat out of the bag. "You can tell me anything, I won't be angry", she replied with a smile.

  "Sweetheart, I have been suffering from a chronic cancer for the past eight years and I kept it a secret from you and Andrew because I don't want you guys to freak out or feel pity for me. Telling you guys was my greatest fear but I'm so sorry for hiding it", I replied. My wife froze like someone who stood before a machine gun, she couldn't even move her body, it was as if she went into another new dimension and just like a dream, she fell to the ground.

She fainted at that instant moment and I quickly screamed out loud to alert the guards and they rushed in to find out what was happening and the maids quickly dashed to the kitchen to get some clean water which they poured on her face till she eventually woke up. I had to tell the guards and the maids to excuse us after they successfully revived her. I looked at her face and I could see tears flowing through her eyes  like a river, she kept crying profusely like a child and hers was even more severe than mine.

  She cried so bitterly to the extent that she started tearing off her clothes in anger and it made wonder if I made the right decision by telling her the truth. "Andrew, you have been sick with cancer for the past eight years and you hid it from me. You acted like everything was normal and you didn't even inform me and your son about your condition until this very moment", she replied with tears in her eyes. "I'm so sorry, I was scared to say it before now there is no point hiding it because I don't have much time left on earth", I replied

She stop crying for a quick second, she looked at me with her red eyes when I mentioned that I don't have much time on earth, "What are you saying?", she asked looking so furious. "I went to my doctor when I started experiencing some weird symptoms on my body and that's why I even sneaked out of the house so that you won't know what's happening because I thought I could still hide. On getting to the hospital, my doctor demanded that I run a test and he confirmed that my cancer has entered stage three and it can't be treated this time because I have been on strong medications and injections for the past eight years, that's why it's hard for anyone to know what's happening. But luck however ran out on me when he mentioned that I only have just one year and few months before the cancer takes over my body and when this happens, it means that I will die", I replied 

  My wife rolled on the floor whole crying out her eyes out, I felt sorry for her because she will turn to a widow in the space of one year and some months. It won't be funny for her as I have seen my women who took their lives with their own hands after their husbands died so early. "What I'm a living for, what will I do if you should leave all alone in this earth?. So you are going to die within one year and you kept this secret to yourself for eight years and pretended like nothing was wrong. What kind of man are you?", she asked in tears 

"Please forgive me, crying over it won't solve anything because when that time eventually comes, I will have to leave you all behind and start another journey in the spirit realm. Let me use this little time I have to fix all the errors in my home and make the path easy for you and Andrew so that you both won't suffer when I'm gone. It's painful to leave with the fact that your husband will eventually leave you so soon but if you truly love me like you claim, we would spend these last few days of my life doing the things we love", I replied while holding her hands.

  We were both crying so hard and it felt like our world was crashing to the ground with a full force. Even in death, I will still love her with all her heart so there is no way I will ever forget about her. "But are you going to die without seeing your grandchildren?, you have always dreamt of the day you will carry your grandchild in your arms. If you won't live long to see them grow, you should at least see and carry them in your arms for a while", she while trying to force a little smile on her face. "But Andrew is not married, how is that going to be possible?", I asked looking so confused.

"I think we should call him to come over so that we could talk about this, it's going to be stressful for him but he has to get married and give you a grandson or daughter before you leave this earth. You should also hear the cry of a grandchild and enjoy the joy your brother felt when his son came home with his grandchild.", she replied. I felt so emotional at this point, even when she knows that I won't live long on earth, she still wants me to spend the last days of my life in happiness.

   If only I could show her happy I am to hear her say those words. "I will call him this evening and inform him that I need to see him so that we can talk about some family issues. But my problem is if he would agree to come over, that boy is so stubborn like a goat" I replied looking a bit worried. "I will call my sister and talk to her so that the both of them would come together, that way Andrew won't have any other choice than to simply follow her", she replied. Perhaps that's a good idea that will work perfectly, and looking at her face, I could see hope written in her eyes