Boring Chiidhood

Jenny's point of view….

    We did nothing as we waited for what I don't know, I can't tell you I know what we are waiting for but definitely we were waiting for something. How will you explain folding your hands while your partner makes random calls at such, asking you to exercise patience.

    He finally got done with the calls and his order arrived. He did not include me when he was ordering what we would eat. I mean, is he in my heart to know what I want to eat? That he would make a choice of what I should eat. I know the bill is on him but it doesn't mean anything.

   That act was a red flag for me.

"I am sorry darling" he apologized

 "Where were we before?"

He asked as the waitresses arranged whatever they came with on the table before us. The orders were too much and I wondered if it was for two people or more.

  I couldn't see what is before us because they came with covered dishes.

  The waitresses left after they were done and I returned my attention back to Lucas. 

   "You know I have lots of questions and you will explain it to me but let's eat for now``i think that's your exact words"

He chuckled at me.

 "Not really, I was telling you about the wines"

He replied,

"Oh! Sorry"

I murmured and he waved it aside.

   "I don't know how you feel that I ordered our lunch without asking you. Hope you don't mind?"

"Of Course I mind!"

I screamed in my mind,

"No I don't mind"

He sighed and smiled at me

"I have a question I want to know, is all this for you and I or you are hosting someone else?"

   "It's for you and I, you have got a problem about it?" 

   He replied and uncovered the first dish and it was fish and chips, it looked yummy but the anger that he did not include me, did not allow me to say anything which made him think it was not my kind of meal. He opened the next one and it was Roasted chicken with mashed potatoes, that was yummy too, I still did not say anything. He opened the best one and it was cheese pudding and the next one was macaroni cheese.

    Everything was opened before us.

"You have not said anything?"

"There is much to say, I am overwhelmed by the dishes that I can't find my words, pardon me please."

    He smiled reliefly and started putting fish and chips on a plate. When he was done, he passed the plate to me then did the same for himself only that he went for cheese pudding.

   I know I did not mention dessert but there is and I could only know if the dishes they are in are uncovered.

   "So tell me what yourself"

He said and put some cheese in his mouth.

   "Childhood was boring"

I simply said and focused on my meal,

"I want to hear it, please"

He begged, I watched him for a while then shrugged my shoulders.

   "We are just two, my sister and I with my dad and mom. I grew up in one of the most wonderful families and I attended the best school. That's all there is to know about me"

   He had stopped eating and was watching me, I raised my brows at him asking him "what" silently.

   "You only summarized it,I said you should tell me not summarize"

He said wrinkling his nose in a funny way. I muffled a laugh and continued chewing my chips.

  "I understand if you don't want to talk about it, there will always be a next time."

 I felt bad that I gave him that impression. 

  I dropped her fork and stared at him,

"I don't mean to sound like that but I found talking about my childhood boring. We can talk about anything else aside that please"

I said and waited for him to say something which he did eventually.

   "Okay then, tell about your past relationship or if you are in a relationship"

  He said. That was something to talk about for me.

  "I am not in a relationship now."

I said and wiped my mouth. I was done eating. 

  "I dated this guy when I was fifteen years old"

I said and he widened his eyes.

I chuckled and said

"Don't look at me like that."

I said and he laughed,

"Alright, forgive my manners"

  "You are forgiven,"

  I said and continued

    "I was a naive little girl who would do anything for him. I didn't know much but I do know he loved me. We were into each other for a year plus and on one fateful day, he walked up to me and ended things. Too bad for me, I loved him too much and it took me time to get over him"

   I did not want to tell him that my heart still beat for my ex or that I had a boy that is my sex mate.

   He sat up right and too my hand in his,

"Remind me again, how old you are"

"I am will be Eighteen soon"

   "Wow, you are too young. You don't look your age and I might be committing a sin by sitting here with you"

   "I had such rapid growth that people found it hard to believe me when I told them my age. You might think I am a minor, that's right but it's just in a month time,  I will be clocking eighteen and if I don't tell anyone, they won't know"

If only he would knows that I have done things which I was not supposed to do because I fell in love.

  When I look at myself my heart bleeds because a lot of people still think I am innocent and one of those people is my mom, how it will break her heart when all that I hiding in my closet will be revealed.