Broken And Unwanted

Jenny's point of view….

    I came out of the Bathroom and I was mad to see Owen in my room, sitting on my bed as if he is the boss of the room. I can't deny the fact that his brother is the owner of the house but he should be a gentleman and respect himself by not coming into my room without my permission. What if I did not go into the bathroom with a towel and come out naked? That's how he would have seen my nakedness for free and the fact that he didn't even apologize got me madder and to insult me on it. The guy has got some nerve. 

   He has to respect himself in this house or I will show you what a lady can do when her privacy is invaded.

   So he was here because he is hungry and had to give me all that insult. I thought when you want to ask for a favor you ask politely.

   I settled down on the dressing table and began creaming my body. For saying all that he said, he would have to wait when I am done here.

   I heard some feet steps and I turned around to see Zain staring at me some inches away from me with his hands inside his pockets. 

  I think I need to see a doctor, how can he come in and I would not hear the sound of the door opening or is he a ghost and why am I even calm having him in my room when I am almost naked.

   "I came to thank you for the meal. It is really delicious. Have not eaten such a delicious meal in a while."

   "It's nothing. With due respect, please when coming into my room remember to knock. It will be mean a lot to me"

I said. I needed him to know that things are not the way they used to be.

  "I will remember that. Can I hang around a little with you?"

    He asked and my eyes pricked. No way am I going to allow that with the kind of a sister I have. She will not hesitate to say I am cheating with her husband because it takes a cheat to call someone a cheat. He should go to his wife, no matter what.

   "No Zain, Susan asked after you when I served her meal"

I said.

   "She is sleeping at the moment"

He responded.

"That's great then, go cuddle your wife Zain. She is sleeping, you have got nothing to do, cuddle her. I heard cuddling is best for pregnant women"

   I said, smiled and faced my front with the hope that he would leave.

   Zain did not leave, rather he walked to me and stood at my back staring at my reflection in the dressing mirror. My heart accelerated and started beating so fast. He was being too close.

   "Are you sure you don't want me to be here? Your eyes are saying something and your body is saying another."

He said casually or I could say seductively, to me,he was trying to seduce me.

   "I want you to leave. You are not supposed to be here, don't just try to start something you know will never work out"

I managed to say. My body was rapidly responding to his closeness. I don't know why his closeness does this to me. At first I thought I was over him and right now, I am not sure about it. He just has to go.

  "But I want to be here with you, to make you smile"

   He insisted and pulled me up roughly and hugged me from the back.

  "Am I asking too much?  To be this close to you even if we are not doing anything."

He further said. At this point, my self control was speedily breaking and I can't assure myself that I will not end up doing something stupid with him.

   "You are asking too much. I am not your wife and whatever we had before is in the past. We just have to accept this and move on"

I said hoarsely. My head was doing the talking while my heart was wishing I didn't talk.

   He started drawing circles on my back, I tried not to respond. My body was on the verge of betraying me. He knew what he was doing because he continued and when he felt me relaxed under him, he grabbed my boobs and pressed them, a sigh escaped my mouth which I later regretted because that moment, Zain turned me over and smashed his lips on mine.

   I struggled to break free but he held so tight and continued kissing me. His kiss was rough and needy. I thought about the possibility of opening up to him and letting him kiss me and the possibility that he is my ex and he chose my sister over me was greater and the anger I thought I had shoved at the bottom of my heart crept up and I landed him a slap without thinking. 

   He pulled away from me and stared at me hurt with his hand on his cheek. My body was vibrating with anger.

   "Please leave my room"

I said viciously and he nodded then walked out of the room. I followed him and locked the door the moment he stepped out and slumped on the floor.

   My heart was racing coupled with my anger. My emotions were messed up and I did not recognize what I was feeling.

  Zain, can't continue to get in me like this. He is my ex and I am not suppose to feel anything for him.

  Why is he doing this? Is he trying to tell me that I can't love another person or that even after three years, he still gets to me emotionally.

   "Damn you Zain, damn you for making me feel vulnerable."

I said with frustration as my tears trickled down my cheeks. My heart twitched and I cried harder. This is how love has left me broken and unwanted.