This Feels Like Home

   I walked to her and circled my arms around her after I was out of my state of shock. I kissed her neck and sniffed her hair. She did not push me away like she always does.

   "Did something happen to you while I was in the kitchen?"

I asked with my mouth on her neck.

   "No, not at all. Why did you ask?"

"Are you seriously telling me the truth?"

I asked and she nodded her head. I am not a child so I am not expected to believe her.

   Turning her to face me, I found her blushing seriously and that alone convinced me that something happened while I was away.

   "Start talking or you would not like what I would do to you"

I playfully said and she smirked.

   "You would not have the heart to hurt me even though you did once"

She said, battering her eyelashes cutely.

Bumping my forehead on hers, a chuckle escaped my mouth.

  "Remind of my sins every minute if that will make you feel better"

"No! no!! I am not doing that, I just can't help it"

   I was like, is she being serious? she is not doing that but she can't help it. Who is she kidding?

   "You just did and you said you are not doing that?"

I said forging annoyance. Her pupils dilated and she bent her face down.

   "You really hurt me so bad, you were not there to see the agony I went through. I just hope this time around I won't experience something like that because I don't know how I'm going to handle it again. Even though I know I am doing the wrong thing by loving my sister's husband who was once my ex and now, a lover"

    Her voice was filled with fear and it had to be my fault. I made her think this way only if I can go back to the past and change what I did.

  I pulled her chin up and palmed her face.

     "I swear with my life that I am not going to hurt you. I don't know how it will be after now, considering that I am still married to your sister but whatever that comes out from it, I'm willing to take it. Just be rest assured that I'm not ditching you again. I love you too much to even think of hurting you ever again"

   After boring my heart out to her, I pulled her and hugged her, feeling her soft skin against mine.

   "Sorry, I was an ass. I will make it up to you"

   I muttered as I stroked her back. She relaxed in my arms.

   "This feels like home. You know how I love to be in your arms and you cuddling me. How I always sneak out to come and see you, I love those days. The sweet memories I created with you helped me while I was grieving. I'm not regretting loving you, I never did. I was just mad at myself that you had to go without considering the love we shared."

She paused and rubbed her nose against my chest,

   "I think we are past that phrase now. We just pick the pieces of ourselves and move on, hoping that this time around it will be better."

She added after a while and looked up at me.

  While she talked I was listening to the beating of her heart. It actually rhymes with mine.

   I brought my lips down to hers and kissed her passionately, reassuring her that we were in this together. She doesn't know how happy she has made me today. The birth of my baby didn't amount to the joy I'm feeling right now. Making up with her was the best thing I have done in a very long time.

    Like dad always say, if your peace of mind is at stake do anything to get it back and I know that Jenny has been my peace of mind and I'm glad I am getting her back. She's not fully back until I can showcase her to the world and tell the world she's the queen of my heart, the one I'll do anything for.