Death Was Never An Option

Tasha's point of view…

    I heard the door closing and I sighed deeply. I didn't want to face Jenny so early in the morning. Not with the image of her I saw last night. It refused to go away. My imagination keeps running wide and soon enough I will go out of my mind.

I calmed my racing her and quietly opened the bathroom door to see if she actually left the room already and when I could not see any sign of her, I came out.

   I would want to think about all the things I heard she and the mom discussed.

The mom leaving is good for me, it could just be me, Lizzy, Jenny and Zain. Getting Jenny might be easier than I thought.

   Zain's point of view…

I walked out of the bathroom after doing heaven knows what. Jenny might be worried why I am not out yet. I did not take my bath which might have been understandable why I would waste such time.

   I guess I was just going down memory lanes and was being worried about Claire. Heaven knows what has become of her. Should I go against Susan and go make claims at the policy but how would they find a day old child without knowing what she looks like, not that I can describe her. I didn't really take time to study her features or I was angry about Susan cheating that I never spared the poor baby a glance.

   Or should I say it's fine she is not with me. Will I have treated her right? Could it be the reason she was taken away. Did Susan see something?

  My head was pounding from a lot of questions in my head, that I did not see the lady sitting on my bed.

  "The room is beautiful"

I snapped at the voice and growled when I saw it's Lizzy.

She was sitting lazily on the bed looking like a fool with a smudge look on her face.

  I felt like slapping the smudge look off her face. I don't even know why I allowed her to stay in my house.

  "Last time I checked, the room was still mine or am I missing something?"

She stood up and walked towards me. She was almost naked, it would be okay if it is Jenny that is wearing it.

  looking at her semi naked body made something to cringe in me and shut my eyes then turned away from her.

How can you allow the mother of your child to sleep in the guest room?"

She accused me.

   "You are our guest and allowing you to stay at the guest room is the only appropriate thing to do. If you have got a problem with it, I assume you are tired of staying and ready to leave"

  I said threateningly and she stopped approaching me.

   "I really don't know what you are made of, whatever."

She flipped her hair and left the room.

 "That was easy, I was thinking she would persist."

  I thought, changing my pajamas.

    I took a picture of Susan above the bed after changing into a singlet and knicker and smiled sadly at her,caressing the photo.

  "I don't know but I miss you terribly. I feel lost without you around and it's killing me. I loved you, you know this. Did you die because you could not face me? Is that why you had a panic attack? We could have gone our separate ways peacefully. Death was never an option. I wish I can bring you back."

    I took a deep breath and went for my empty suitcase in the closet. The biggest one among them and started packing Susan's things in it.

  Seeing them almost breaks my heart the more. So they have to be kept away, not just for me but for Jenny. I see the way her eyes moisturize each time she sees any of Susan's belongings.

  Though she keeps a strong facade, deep down she is hurting.

"Keeping your things away doesn't mean we are forgetting you. We just want to find the while to live off your death. I am sure you understand"

   I said putting her makeup kits on inside the suitcase. I was at her dressing table clearing everything off it.

  I lost track of time packing her things. When I was satisfied with her things not in sight, I pushed the suitcase inside the closet and left the room.