It's Better Being Friends

     I took a moment to watch her, the way she ate her lunch gracefully with smiles plastering on her face. I know right there that she is irreplaceable. No matter what happens at the long wrong, no matter how I grow, if even I have my own kids, she will remain the number one.

   I can't tell how much I love her at this moment. I am not sure I can match to her strength, how she is being able to handle Susan's death and everything makes me want to be there for her. It's just two of us now.

  "You can stop staring, I know you love me"

Her voice brought me back to the present. I grinned and shook my head.

Oh yeah! I love everything about you, Momma." I exclaimed.

She rolled her eyes at my reply, shaking her head then turned away from me and began eating her lunch. A content sigh escaped my lips and I gazed at the window. It looks like rain clouds are forming.

 "I love you too my darling, you mean the world to me. Now let's finish out lunch, we having been eating for long now"

  I nodded as silence fell back between us. We concentrated in finishing our lunch. The only noise that can be heard is the one of our forks clashing with the plates.

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  We finally finished our lunch and I cleared the plates then returned to the leaving room to join her. She had the TV tuned on. 

"You wanna watch some movie?" She asked.

"Yes, mamma" I replied as I sat on the couch beside her. I watched as her face lit up and she grabbed my hand as we both started watching a cheesy romantic comedy that made me blush.

"I love this movie!" She exclaimed as we got lost in the plot.

   "I know you love it, you believe so much in love that I am beginning to think I took after you in that aspect."

 I giggled.

She turned to look at me with a smile on her face " Are you kidding me, you literally took after me in every aspect or have you not noticed?" 

She stated then turned back to the screen. I know I took after her but I wasn't sure if it is in every aspect because I am not too strict like she is or is it because I am not a parent yet?.

"I hear you mama"

I laughed and turned my attention back to the tv screen.

  "So, who was the guy that came earlier?" 

My pulse hitched and I turned sharply to look at her. she had no expression on her face. I did not realize she knew someone came to see me.

   I know my mom and lying to her about it is not a wise thing to do.

   "His name is Lucas. he is as guy I met and I thought I was going to use him to get over Zain while I am here but look at where I am right now"

I said hopelessly trying to hide the confusion in my voice.

And the worst part of this is that he thinks Zain is my brother"

I looked up at mom, "when he saw my ring today, I had every chance to tell him that I am engaged but I could not" 

  Mom sighed and took my hands into hers then gave them a little squeeze.

  "You always know what to do in every situation. You should be able to tell him so he would not find out himself and hate you. It's better being friends than enemies" 

  "I know mom, I just don't know how to tell him. We have not gone deep yet I can't find my words around him. There is this unexplainable feelings I have when I am around him. I feel homely and safe"

I said, muttering the last sentence in the sense that she would not hear it.

    "I don't know about that,my dear but what I do know is, You and Zain are a match made in heaven. Anything that will come between you two should be far away from you both. I am sure if you talk to him, he will understand. Just find a way around it"

She said and released my hand then stood up.

"I should go get ready, I have a journey to embark on"

   She said leaving. I quickly turned off the Tv and followed her.

  I totally forgot she was leaving. The reality was beginning to dawn on me and I am not sure I can cope with just Zain without having her around me.

  There is much to do, having to stay away from Tasha and having a pregnant b*tch to deal with. I pray for the strength to handle the situation to come right to me now.