Choice

Zain's point of view… 

   I was speechless at the manner in which she stormed out of the living room. I am sure she is not angry because I asked her what Lucas was doing here, it could be what I said but what was it that I said?

   I stared at my half eaten spaghetti carbonara and I suddenly lost appetite.

 I got up from the table without a second thought and headed to our bedroom to sort things out with her.

  Getting to our bedroom, I saw her curled on the bed with the duvet heaped around her. I sighed and walked into the room, stared at her for a while then sat on the bed.

  "Jenny?" I called quietly, I reached to touch her shoulder but she quickly shifted so that she was facing away from me.

"What do you want?" She snapped and her tone made it obvious that she did not want me here. I sighed again and shook my head; it would be better if I leave.

  "Just leave!" She yelled when I started to stand. she pulled the duvet tighter around her and I shook my head once more, this time harder before slowly sitting back on the bed. If we don't resolved whatever it is now, it's going to amount to something else and that I don't want.

  "Why are you angry at me?"

I asked as calm as possible. "I'm really sorry, I didn't mean to make you mad, why can't we just talk about it like adults and have a discussion?" She remained silent still.

    I did not even know why I was apologizing but it felt like it is the right thing to do.

  I grabbed her hand and turned her towards me, looking at her palms, which were shaking slightly; it was clear that she was really angry at me. Her hands shake whenever she is furious. 

  She struggled to pull her hand free from my grip but I held onto it.

  "You are going to be this angry and expect me to leave you alone, huh?"

I asked giving her hand a little squeeze. She finally stopped struggling then sighed deeply and rolled on her side to face me.

   I let go of her hand then lay next to her. I placed my hand over hers and interwined our fingers gently.

"What happened?" I whispered softly. 

  Jenny was still silent and looked straight ahead, her eyes were half closed and her breathing was heavy.

"Jenny, please, I really need you to talk to me what happened." I pleaded, I caressed her cheek trying to get a response from her.

I tried to keep my voice from breaking but I failed miserably. it hurt to see her like this. She has always been strong when she needed to be and this situation is no different.

She stayed silent but eventually opened her eyes fully. I gave her a smile before kissing her forehead. 

   "I am sorry my emotions get the best of me. You were supposed to persist in asking me why Lucas was here not just to feel is okay not to talk about it. I felt you were indirectly telling me I go nowhere" She muttered.

I smiled at her then kissed her forehead again before taking her in my arms; I pulled her close, resting my chin on top of her head, hugging her tightly.

   I kissed her temple lightly again and continued to hold her tightly. She is really behaving childish.  Because she felt I was supposed to be persistent, that's why she got angry. I did not know it was wrong of me trying to give her a choice still next time, I would do the same. I want her to understand she has a choice to make in her life.

  "Sorry you misunderstood me, I wanted you to be able to tell freely without feeling any pressure or feeling like you owe me an explanation. Off course you owe me an explanation but it's up to you to want to tell me" I said while stroking her hair lightly and listening to her heartbeat.

Her breathing slowed down until it became regular. I moved my lips against the crown of her head as I began talking again.

"I love you and only you, Jenny, don't forget that" I said while placing another kiss on top of her head before continuing.

  "The last thing I will ever do is give you a choice. You are my woman, right but you have right to socialization. I trust you so much that I am not going to come between you and Lucas. I trust you to always do the right thing."

"I'm sorry Zain, for the way I reacted" She whispered 

"No its okay, I should have known it would upset you. It's okay, you are allowed to express yourself, as long as it does not affect our relationship." I replied, squeezing her tightly again. I need her to know that I will support whatever decision she makes and that I will always be there for her. 

  "So if you feel you want to tell me what he was doing here, you go ahead but if you think otherwise, you don't bother"

  She sighed and buried her head on my chest. Her heartbeats was high and I could detest nervousness.

"This girlfriend of mine is considerate enough"

I mused and waited to hear her talk because I knew she was going to tell me why Lucas was here.