Chicken Out Of Water

    I watched her buzzed around like for five minutes and when she was done adding bathing jelly, she turned to me. I did not move because I thought again I should try to convince her to let me take my bath myself, it's not like anyone would know that I bath myself unless she spilled. 

   "See, you don't have to do this. No one will know unless you tell them so please allow me bath myself, it's not a big deal."

I pleaded. Her eyes softened but the determined look on them did not waiver.

   "Please, this kindness you going to do for me might give bath to something big tomorrow"

Her lips curved upward into a small smile at my words.

"If you say so"

Then she proceeded to leave without making eye contact with me, I couldn't blame her. After all, I was just a stranger and this is probably her job or something. 

   After closing the door behind me, I sat on the bathtub, staring at the blank white tiles in front of me. So many thoughts were whizzing through my head that it took a few seconds for my brain to function properly and I began to think of possible scenarios. I knew what I was going to do but I just hoped that the chances of this happening were low.

   I stood up and went to the sink, turning on the tap and splashing some water on my face. I dried my face with a towel and stared at my reflection in the mirror. I looked tired and pale, my hair was messy and my eyes were red. I looked like shit.

   I saw a new brush and picked it up to bush my teeth after applying a mouth wash on it. The lady might thave put it there, how considerate she is.

  After making sure my teeth was clean enough, I ripped off every clothes in my body and went into the tub.

   The water touching my skin remained me how long I have been without a taking a proper bath. Yesterday night, the guard literally rushed me out of the bathroom.

   For a moment I felt safe forgetting my worries for a while, it's did not last forever though because immediately my eyes caught how secured the bathroom is, I realized that whoever that brought me here never really wanted me to leave without fulfilling whatever it is he wants me to do.

  The thought alone sickened me more and I felt like the faster I get done with this bath and I get over with this skimpy nightie the earlier I am going to leave here. So I scrambled off the bathtub and rinsed my body without taking a proper bath.

  I did not bother to get myself dried as I quickly wore the damn nightie. I was ashamed to look at myself, I was more of a slut at the moment.

 " How did I end myself in this situation of hopelessness?"

I mumbled sadly as I bent to pick up the other nightie.

   I stepped out of the bathroom and met the lady waiting for me patiently. When she saw me, the disapproving look in her eyes did not escape my notice.

  "I am not sure you took a bath, you looked like a chicken out of water"

   She said shaking her head. Her statement sounded insulting but I found myself smiling at it.

  "That's better, you look more beautiful when you smile."

She uttered and started walking, I followed her.

   "You are not in a do or die affair, it's up to you to make a choice. You can decide to think about yourself and let others fuck off but you can think about others and let yourself fuck off. It's all up to you."

   I narrowed my eyes at what she said and the lingering feelings that she is giving me a hint of what is to come stayed right at the back of my mind. She abruptly stopped making me to bump into her back.

 "My boss is the nicest man I have known, he might seem mean and ready to kill but human life is worth much more than you can imagine to him." 

   I smiled showing her my teeth. She must be kidding me right now. Did she say human life is worth more to the man? For someone who got a guard killed because I tried to escape or is she talking about someone else?

" Whatever he has with you is strictly business"

She added and started walking again

 Since I had nothing to say, I stayed mute and allowed her to lead me to hell.

  We finally stopped in front of a big bronze door. I did not know but I had a few skips. Was she not supposed to take me back to the room I was put in or is this part of the plan? To transfer me to a new room.