Hurting Jenny

Jenny's point of view....

  My tears continued to flow nonstop as I curled on the floor near my bed. My body shuddered and shook, my hands were pressed against my mouth. I had never felt so much pain in my life. I am not pained because my children felt betrayed by me, I am hurt by my daughter's very own words. She has forgotten so soon how it was just me and them for a long time now. Mitchelle said she hates me. That's so disheartening. I can't bear this. 

  The more I think about what she said, the more I cry. Her words cut right through me. 

  Life is so unfair and to even think I was an ass myself by how I gave them the news about their father. A Lot will be going through their minds now. I wonder how they are taking the situation. My kids are not weak yet I would not also think they will just accept all that I have said and pretend everything is okay. Mitchelle is literally going gaga right now.

  My phone started ringing but I did not move from the floor nor did I have the urge to pick the call. I will first want to answer the call before I will stand up. The call can wait and besides I can't talk to anyone in this state. If it's mom, I will give her an excuse why I could not pick.

  It did stop and I had thought that would be it but I was wrong. It rang again for the second time, third and the fourth one, I stood up and grabbed the phone, wiping my tears in the process.

  It was who I was not expecting, Miss Celine.

 If I answer this call, she will know that something is wrong but eventually I will need to talk to someone and she is the right person to think to. Hopefully, she will tell me what to do. 

  The phone stopped ringing before I could make up my mind and I called her instead, not on a normal call but before then I made sure there were no traces of tears in my eyes.

  The call got connected and the face of someone who was so worried about me came up.

  "What is wrong with you,girl? You now ignore my calls huh?"

I said nothing as she continued to scold me. After a while of talking, she stopped and stared at me.

  "Are you alright?"

I shook my head in reply. First time I am admitting to her that I am not alright.

"What's going on?"

She was calm which kind of surprised me. If it's the old Celine, she would have been panicking now. She now has complete faith that I can handle any difficult situation. I think this is what it is.

  "I told Mitchelle and Michael about Zain and they are hating me right now"

"Oh my gosh! Why!"

She exclaimed. She sounded like she was in shock. This was not what she expected to hear. 

I sighed deeply and began."I had to tell them. This might be the only opportunity I will ever need to tell them about him so I told them"

All I said came in whisper.

She adjusted herself on the couch making her baby bump to be visible enough. The pregnancy was really looking good on her. 

  "What are you talking about? Which opportunity?"

She asked trying not to sound impatient. I still couldn't meet her eyes because when I looked at her face, I might start crying again. She must have noticed the fact that I couldn't look her in the eye or maybe she saw the tears falling down my cheeks. Maybe both.

  My hands shook and lean the phone on the edge of the bed in that way, I would not have to hold the phone through the phone call. I have a feeling that this call will be a long one.

"You will have to answer me, Jenny. what's going? For you to tell them about Zain, something might have come up. You ever went ahead to tell them without informing any of us. Do you think you can handle everything?"

She added when she saw I wasn't ready to talk. She was right. I should have consulted her before telling them. Celine would have given me an idea on how to go about it so that they would not hurt much like they are doing now.