Chapter 19

Danilella's P.O.V

"Turn that phone off girl, get a shower and prepare for your classs," retorted my mother.

Ever since I was caught with Davids, life has not been the same for me. Alot has changed, my mother thinks that am a disgrace to the family by befriending an enemy, Vin thinks that probably I fucked with Davids and our love life has been affected greatly. 

He demands for sex, he used to do that, but even when am not in the mood he just comes around and forces himself on me. My mother gave hm an access to my room and I have no say about that.

No one is allowed in.

Today am just sore after he forced himself on me, the tears on my eyes can't stop flowing and I just don't know how it's going to end.

"Daniella!" Shouted my mother.  She came close to me and yanked me off from my sitting position, twisted me around and brought me to a stand still. 

"If those fake tears of your can't stop pouring out, I will bring a bucket so that I can fetch them and save myself the budget of paying for water bills!" She warned with her stern voice echoing through my ears.

He tore the white sleeping camisole from my body, pushed me to the corner and brought her hands towards my breast pointing at them, 

"These, these are not worth hiding, I know you let people touch you every now and then and here you are pretending that you are holly, get in there wash your filthy whore body and come sit down for your classes," 

She threw the torn camisole in the dustbin and banged my bedroom door an her way out.

I sat on the floor, 

"Why me, why me her flesh and blood, why? I asked myself every now and then."

I wish I knew why my mother has never been interested in me, why of all the people in the world will she be the only one who sees wrong in everything I do?

I walked to the bathroom and decided to take a hot shower, I did not want any of these to lower my spirit down, but everytime I picture how Vin will force himself on me, 

"I have said you open your legs, " he will shout and tear a slap across my face spreading my thighs.

I die more, 

Everytime my mother shouts at me, sees a mistake in me than good things, I want to end it.

What I don't understand is,  why I don't want to let it go,  Davids said "some of us don't hide who we are, we embrace our defects and be strong," I wanted to ask her why she said that then I remember she is just using me to get on top of her family business and I decided against it. 

I picked my sponge and rubbed myself clean before wrapping a towel across my body.

My parents decided I will have to take online classes. They think am so stupid and naive that if I go back to school Davids will tLe advantage of me, David will use me and tarnish my falily's reputation.

"Do you think am foolish and move?"

I wore my pajamas and set myself ready for class.

I had some few minutes before the class, I decide to read the news paper that was brought in and eat some food. 

Darling, when I say food I mean salad. Chopped fruits, and boiled vegetables and Japanese slimming tea. 

I wondered why I needed it to slim, I ate the fruits and left the vegetable alone. There was nothing interesting on the magazine, I turned to my phone.

Clara's text was the first with big capital letters

'IF YOU DON'T WANT TO TELL ME WHAT IS WRONG, AM NOT YOUR FRIEND. FRIENDS DONT HIDE SECRET FROM EACH OTHER! 

DAVIDS HAS SAID HI'

Typical high school text, Clara has always been a charming friend. I can't let her go because I love her a lot, I decided to tell her that I will be taking online classes but did not say anything about Davids. She can 'Hey, hi 'me all she wants.

After two seconds, I saw clara called my phone, I picked it up and responded quickly wanting to hear her voice, 

"Girl am sorry, ...." I stated off,

"Sweetheart, it's Davids," came the voice from the other end.  My stomach fell, it was cold.  Things dancing below, it felt too cold. He was breathing slow, her voice was manoeuvring through my head, I felt this want, the want of wanting her, the urge of seeing a face, 

"Seeetheart are you there?" She asked.

I slapped my self across my face", Daniella, come on think think!" 

I dismissed the call and declined it.

I couldn't keep my focus in class, 

I couldn't see other student, only the teacher. I tried so hard to give attention to everything, writing notes, answering fee questions and soon the class will be over.

I joined the music team for the rehearsals, this time around I could see everyone. 

Clara was spotted next to Davids, 

"What are two planning?" I thought.

"So you are friends with him, uuh," I texted Clara.

She looked at her phone then looked back at the screen lifting her middle finger. Davids was bisy foxing her saxophone she was not paying me attention.

She whispered something to Clara who in turn laughed hard. I felt something on my throat, checking me and another in my stomach twisting up. 

"We call it jealousy," my. Mind thought.

Why will I be jealousy of class and Davids, Clars has girlfriend and she is not interested in her. Davids was now touching her on the shoulder talking to her, like they have know each other for year's, she looked shocked to what she was told then nodded her head smiling at her.

No, no, this can't be happening. So she was just using me and nothing else. After I refused to her love she decided to to go to CLara.Clara needs to know that the snake is a out to bite her.  

I called her, 

"What?" she replied looking at me from the screen.

"Give that phone to that asshole!" I shouted at her and closed my video.

I did not hear clara replying but I heard a shuffling then her good irritating voice came through, 

"Yes, darling, do you want to talk?" She asked me.

I felt calmed just by her voice.

All the anger all the jealousy within me disappeared and I was helpless

"David's," I whispered.

Why am I whispering, I was supposed to be shooting at her right now. I tried so much to let my voice out but I could not.

"Daniella are you okay?" She asked gently.

"How can I be okay? 

Tell me how, am trying to hold on to the last breath of life that I have, I am trying to smile as wide as possible to make everyone believe a. Okay Davids, I wish I was okay, I wish I could look you in the eye and explain everything to you, I wish Davids. Everything is not making sense, you are there, am here how can explain to you."

That is what I wanted to tell her, and much more but I could not find my voice, my voice is cut, I can scream but you can't here, I can talk but you can't understand. 

"Hey, can someone hear me please!"