254: Maybe.....

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Davids' P.O.V

                Fuck, fuck, fuck you, Davids!

You can't be nice, you can't even be nice to her? She was trying to talk to you, not like she wanted you or something else. She just wanted to know why you are avoiding her, is that bad for someone to do? Who are you even dating? Yourself or your fucking pillows?  You have made her feel the worse on her first day here, she is going to be frustrated her whole life. Are you seeing those beautiful kids she has been with, she has worked so hard to make them arrive there but who are you, who feels like she doesn't deserve a second chance. Look at Damien, he has accepted Clara without any problem. What about you? You are acting like the mighty asshole who knows everything. We know very well that when you are alone in your room, you cry and wish someone to love you. She has come all the way to just make sure she sees you and try to make amends. Why did you have to shout at her?

Okay, I am not dealing with those thoughts right now. It's like they want to kill me and make me feel like the bad person here. The fact that Daniella is married and had a wedding makes her wife to someone, I am not going to mess any of that. I don't want to be a victim. Maybe this time around, I might find myself deep in the ground unable to breathe again. I don't want to mess anyone again. That's why I think I am going to fucking leave this place. 

I walked to my family still enjoying their meal with the three little kids filling them with stories. They all seemed happy that more members have been added to the family, not me though. I have nothing against her two children. As much as they look like me, that's none of my business. 

                 'Are you sure it's none of your business?'

Okay man, not now, I think I have better things to do. Like building an empire and other important things. I am not going to be mopping all over her.

Excuse me, but I have some work I need to catch up with, sorry. My mum widened her eyes at me. She knew very well that I was avoiding everyone in the house the way I have been doing ever since I walked out of prison.  Brian gave me a scornful look while slightly raising his middle finger at me.  Damien was just giving me raised brows while munching on the steak.

"Is it a must Davids, we are having a family lunch and the dessert has not been served. You could have even waited to have desert, Annie made it just the way you love it," 

This all convincing me was not going to work, I removed my phone and pretended to be receiving a call. That way and I walked out of the house, passing Daniella standing by the kitchen corridor looking at me with a pleading face. 

                'Aren't you going to even say sorry?'

It's lunch I think you should be having a meal darling, I need to focus on my work. My thoughts never know when to stop bothering me. They will always make sure they dance all over the place.

I don't want any distractions. I am going to have a very important meeting and all these wanting to advise me about some shit that I don't know about is not working even a little. It's annoying, I need to have the deal sealed today and if not today then everything is going to be messed up. 

Getting into my car, Andrew stood there, looking at me. I have never seen his eyes this worried and at the same time shouting anger.

Is everything alright? That sounded like a stupid question because the way he looked at me there was nothing okay. But I have just left my house some second ago, I hope no one choked on the steak.

'Why are you being sarcastic, keep quiet and let him say what he wants to say, I bet he is here to pinch your ears.'

Whatever man, I am quiet, and I am going to listen to what he is saying, as long as I am not being lectured about loving and being a good person, I am good already

"What do you think you are doing Davids, leaving in the middle of an important lunch because of a meeting? That is so naive don't you think. You are making Daniella feel bad about coming here."

You see what he is telling me, I told you I can tolerate anything but not someone trying to advise me about something. 

I am a sorry uncle, I am okay with everything. She can take up my room. Plus she is married, what do you want me to tell her?

   'For fucks sake, are you still using the marriage issue to avoid her?'

Shut it, I am listening to this person in front of me. This isn't the time you are supposed to curl your tail up your ass and act as if we don't know each other. 

Instead of Uncle Drew saying anything, he just looked at me and nodded to my driver.  Maybe he is correct. I need to man up and stop being naive. This was not helping. It was still killing me. 

            "Where to Sir?"

              Daniella! What are you doing here?

            "Sir, are you okay?" 

I looked at the person who was talking to me, fuck, I dreamt of her again. Okay, let's lose this. This is so fucked up. Hey you, I told you to curl your tail and act as if we don't know each other. 

'Doing exactly that, this is us, we don't know each other. That's why I am messing things up. Maybe you should create space for me in your head for a minute, don't you think?'

Fuck you, I am not in the mood for you. I think I will pass.

Excuse, Zainab, take me to the office, I need to have that meeting, then, please make sure you check whether the car delivery will be done tomorrow because we need to service this one.

"Yes sir," they call me sir, I am used to it. This helps to make things easy for everyone. It is not like I don't know who I am. I know who I am and I am always placing myself in that place. 

Arriving at my office, the bodyguards walked into the lift to check it after they were sure that everything is okay, they allowed me to go in. 

My secretary was ready with everything. The meeting area had been prepared, some refreshments prepared and we were just waiting for the meeting. I think I came in early. I could have maybe stayed for that lunch and waited for Annie's dessert. 

I checked the report that Makena sent me in the morning about various developments on the farm. To some extent, I feel like, this is the best investment I have ever made when I was young. I must thank everyone for this opportunity. Though we already have scholarships for students who want to study Agriculture and anything related to it. 

'Are you sure you didn't have this dream so that you can have a good life?'

What do you want? I am not going to give in to those stupid ideas of yours. I had this dream alone. And if you think that I wanted someone involved in it then you are wrong. My whole high school I had been thinking about this idea and now it's big. Are joking? I am not going to let you start telling me that I built this thinking that Daniella was in the picture.

'Whatever, okay tell me about this girl who you are dating, I would love to know more about her, maybe I will top pushing about Daniella.'

You dont need to know anything about her, you will know her when you see her. Stop being so stupid about it. 

'Dont fool yourself, I know there is nothing because I am in your head. I am not like your hormone master so there is nothing you can lie to me about. So just agree that your hormone master is trying to be an ass but I will have to talk to her about controlling your desires. Plus you need to calm down and stop being a bitch, if you don't love her and you have forgiven her, just be okay with it. The way you are behaving makes me feel like you are still angry and at the same time jealous of her. '

Okay, on an honest point, I forgave her but there is this thing in me that keeps bagging me. She is married, what if that backfired on me? Who is the father of her kids, that also disturbed me every day and as much as I want to be okay with it, I am not? I just want to distance myself from her. I also want to make her know that I don't have time for her and that she doesn't have a place in my heart. Happy now?

      'But you still love her?'

                                       Maybe........