Confronting Kwofo the next morning made him confirm it was a drunken mistake one he said won't be repeated.
"I spiked that drink that night; it was a juice I poured into the Akppuruachia container"
well that explains the sweetness of the alcohol.
"I wanted to have my first kiss with you; if I can't have it with you when you're sober, I can at least have it with a drunk you. When my plan didn't work then, I stopped trying to get you to like me since it's obvious the gods weren't on my side", he scratched his hair.
" I never knew of your feelings back then", I said to him; as if it could have made a difference if he told me.
Truth be told, I wouldn't have pursued a relationship with him since he's like a brother to me; the idea of being together with him doesn't sit well with me.
"It wouldn't have made a difference; I knew back then a relationship between us wouldn't work, bit I was hoping it does", he shook his head, "I was too lost in the fantasy world I built for the two of us to care about the realistic world. To me the world of fantasy is the best world ever to be.
I was ecstatic when you confirmed about your attractions to the same sex; it made me hope that your confessions might bring about a change of heart in you. I hopes you will then get to see me as more Than a friend.
The reason I was so happy to be in this academy is because of you; I thought since you don't know anyone here, you will grow to rely on me, and in turn call for me like I've always wished for.
The wolf made my plans futile; him befriending you made it difficult for you to be with me, coupled with the fact the royals dine together while us commoners take the floor table.
I've not for once resented my position under you until I came to this academy; coming here made me Wish I was born a royalty, that way I can spend every waking moment with you", he wiped a stray tear, " the wolf and the mark made it difficult for me to realize my dreams".
" Am sorry Kwofo, I never knew what you were passing through", and I called myself a friend? friends always looks out for each other, friends always knows when their friends are passing through difficult times, but what did I do? I just added to his misery instead of reducing it for him.
"You don't have to feel sorry for me Buchim, I should have known nothing productive will come out of my crush for you", he forces a smile, " I will like it if you forgive me, and accept me back as a friend despite all that have happened. Please don't punish me more by denying me the joys of being your friend", he pleads as he wipes the tears gushing out his eyes.