Chapter 14

   When I got back home,I felt relaxed,and still guilty,my legs finally got used to standing,"if my legs were wobbly after being fingered now imagine,it's condition after sex" placing my hands like a fraustrated woman," how can I say that outloud,what If someone hears me" 

    "Reth who are you talking to" my mom's voice settled me,that's when I realized I was talking to myself in darkness,in the middle of the parlour, I went to take my bath then wore my pyjamas, my sister wasn't around so I had the whole room to myself,it used to be fun, but after the intimate scene with Peter and I,I don't feel good sleeping inside any longer.

     But I had no other option anyway,I layed on my bed and took my phone,it was the only cure for boredom,and I slept in peter's house so I won't sleep early today,I watched some cool videos about dogs,I really love animals well not all,I don't like frogs and snakes,they freak me out, only if i am immune to death, then I can consider snakes,but I just don't like frogs.

      I felt cold even under the duvet,I had cold feet, I wanted to be cuddled, Peter made me realize I love hugs, cuddles,and kisses,or maybe it's because of our relationship,it might not feel the same way with others,I stood up to take a pair of socks, then I grabbed a pillow, in replacement for peter, I gave the pillow several kisses and tight hugs, I imagined peter beside me when I wake up,and same before going to bed.

        And we will have our children,and leave happily ever after with no further complications,I was in wonderland when I got distracted by my notification,I was about to silence my phone when I noticed the message was from peter I quickly opened it "Hello darling" it was a voice note,his voice was so flirty he stressed the darling and it made me blush,I played it repeated several times before I replied.

     Though I can't talk at night since everyone was asleep, so I replied him with a text,we had a long conversation and I was glad he wasn't shy,he was so flirty,he talked about how my nipples blows his mind,same with my lips, I liked this version of Peter, though I wasn't romantic I tried my best to respond to his message in a flirty way,I might be good academically,but when it comes to being a teenager, or acting like my age I seem not to Excel too much in that part.

        Ninety percent of our chat that night, was so erotic,I had to clean my self up because his word were affecting me, though I was too embarrassed to tell him, surprisingly I slept early,and in peace,o hugged my pillow in replacement for peter,and if it had life,I might wake up with a dead pillow,due to suffocation.

     This term break was the best, and will soon come to an end I had almost two weeks to enjoy at home, Peter and I maintained a distant relationship due to my overstay in peter's house,I knew she wanted to protect me,so I didn't protest,she trusted Mrs Anna,but she felt Insecure since am about to finish my secondary school,and most young ladies become loose ones that get to such stage.

         I remembered her telling me stories of different people that pregnancy ruined their life,even if I get pregnant for peter,I Know he won't leave me neither would he want to ruin my life with it,at least I thought he won't,since he loves me and I was head over hill for him,I constantly imagine our older selves with our children, peter visited our house at least twice or three times a week, sometimes he brings food for me, I still remembered his expression when I was menstruating.

    He was worried and bought some blood tonics, he complained that I might lose too much blood in the process, normally the first two days my menstruation starts it hurts so much, at first I was to shy to tell him until he saw stain of blood on my cloths,I was the most embarrassing moment of my life,I explained to him with my head facing the ground,he urged me to change,when I came out he was nowhere to be found,I was scared, why did he leave? And in a short time I saw him with a small bag,and he was with a blood tonic,and a takeaway.

  " Babe, take eat something before you faint,you lose too much blood,it was overflowing that it had to wet your cloth,only God knows the amount left in you body" I took the food without saying anything then after that he gave me the medicine, he was so caring,I never knew love could offer such fulfilments.

   Thinking about love I wish my mom would find love, sometimes she cries in her room at night, though she doesn't talk much about my dad I know she misses him, I never want to lose peter he was my world,if he took care of me like this while menstruating I wonder how he would when am pregnant for his child,my legs might not touch the surface of the earth.

    My mom never suspected anything between me and Peter,she thought he were just like siblings,or more closer since we had a twisted childhood, we were born the same day though peter came to be world few hours before I was born, just like a set of twins, though my older brother suspected me,and sometimes he would tease me,he was the most annoying person in the whole wide world,and the best.

     He would always support me,and he was my best friend, my relationship excelled,and I felt totally comfortable without fear on peters laps, he asked me to be his girlfriend, even though I knew we were already intimate, he said he never asked me,and it was true, he explained the reason for his fight in school,and when he was referring to my girlfriend he was actually talking about me.

      I felt so special,I wasn't the only one crushing on peter,he also had a crush on me even before I started noticing him, sometimes I would stare at his face,he was like a demi god,a guy like him would have been a play boy,and every woman's man,but he was mine,all mine,I was really happy that felt lucky to have him as my lover.