Chapter 135: War of Words

Of course, keeping things of such magnitude from your son is evil, I can't believe that she could do that to me, and now look at her playing the victim. As at that moment, I was really unhappy with mom, I had this feeling that was near to hatred for her, out of annoyance I forgot all the questions that I had prepared for her, I just sat before the noodles looking at her, she couldn't look me in the face. You know, I never believed that mom could be so scared of me, though she was not scared of me because of what I an, she knows that I am her little sweet heartbreak, and she knows that there is nothing possible that I can do to her, she trusts me on that aspect just as I trust her to find a way to save me. Mom was only scared because she knows she wrung, it wasn't even fear, maybe I should call it guilt, but I prefer calling it fear, it gives me this sense of power. 

"My love, what do you want me to do? Please forgive me, I was only scared, I don't want to lose you, I couldn't tell you about your father because I'm scared you might want to leave me. Baby, I love you so much, you are all that I have, you have seen me, how many friends do I have? Have you seen any uncle visit or we visit any uncle? Have you seen any aunty, brother or sister? Did you even see any mom or dad? You are my everything, my all and all if anything happens to you, or you leave me, then I am finished. I probably won't last a week. Damie this was why I hid the truth from you, I will never do anything to hurt you, you know that already, so please try and understand me, yes it is true, your father is Merman, but that is all I know about him, after that first encounter I have with him, I have never seen or heard from me, in fact, that was why I left Lagos, and if it will make you feel better, yes, I tried to abort you, but you can't go, I even tried poisoning myself, but you will let me die neither, it was after I have come to understand that there no way that I can get rid of you that I decided to keep you, and when you were born, you came out this cute, the doctor knew you were strange from the first day you were born. You looked and me and smile, and you will only cry when you are separated from me. They said they have never seen such a thing before, a baby who smiled first instead of crying, and a baby who already knew his mother the second of his birth. So my baby, you see, all these things made me hide this from you. Yes call me selfish, but please do not hate me, I have not been myself only having the knowledge that you are mad at me."

Mom said. Listening to this long sermon of mom really got me weakened, mom had always told me that im all she got, she will often say to me:

"My sweet heartbreak, you know you are all I got, so do not mind whatever those boys say, I wouldn't want you to engage in any fight."

So she will say. She will also say;

"My dear Damie, as you grow older you will meet different friends, please choose your friends wisely, you know you are all I have got, I won't want anything to happen to you, is that clear? Do not mingle with bad friends do not do things that will cause us shame, ok."

Now reminding me of this again, reminding me that I am all that she got again today, which is actually the truth, we are definitely all we got, now I saw reasons why I must not make her feel bad anymore, now I looked at her and see some droplets of tears dripping from her eyes this broke my heart, mom had always told me how I have only made her smile right from the day I was born, she had always told me how I smiled on the first day I saw her which was the day I was born, she told me how everyone was surprised but she, they were all surprised that I could tell she was my mom, and how I could even see. Now I am causing her to cry, immediately I stood up from my noodle that was yet to be tampered with and I walked to her and gave her a hug. 

"Mom, you are also all I have got, and I am sorry about everything, it is just that I am not happy that I have to find out about this disturbing information about me, I am just heartbroken and that was why I am like this." 

So I said to mom.

"It is ok my love, I totally understand your reaction, so now that we are good, you may eat your food, you know that cold noodle is really boring."

Mom said to me.

"Now dont worry, I have faith that this will work, and after it is done, I believe that all the ties between you and the water will be broken. You will never have anything with them again... And you are not a Fishman my son, hahaha, I see you hate the trust me, you are not, and there is nothing like a fish fish-mana you are very funny my love."

Mum said and we both laughed about it. I actually believed that mom's plan will work. Well did it work? You can look at me and be the judge, hahaha, I forgot that you can't see me, but no worries as I advance, you will get to see and judge.