Chapter 197: Your Mom Loves You

The thought of this alone makes me sick. What could he probably do for me? And with all these going on, mom has no plans for anything fun. Well, I won't blame her, she carries a lot of load on her head, she plays the role of both a father and a mother at the same time, it's not quite an easy one, now I see really why mom truly needs a man, being with the Brights, I have to recognize the need of a father, you know, before now I have never thought of the need of any other person, mom had been my all in all, she did everything for me in full, at least so I thought, but now I have noticed that if my mom does not get a helping hand in her activities, she will definitely break down, and I won't want that for her. So, even though I hated the idea of her being with another man, I still understand that she does need another man, because, for a fact, Dad had never been there, it had been mom all thee while, school fee, feeding clothing, shelter, and all forms of assistance, I had always been Miss. Juliet Chimamanda Chibuzor, just her without any helping hand. It was only until recently that he started coming but only through the dream, I guess he had been too busy running the king's business. So I thought.

Be next morning after that night, it was the twenty fought of December and the ever if Christma, the Christmas breeze was already knocking on doors, the sweet smell of Christmas was already hovering around, Mr. Bright came tome with a Xmas tree, which both he and Cynthia we're already decorating, when I came out after my early morning shower which I learned from mom, I found them doing the decoration already, well I was an expert in that thing, but there was no way that I could help, Cynthia was there, and u definitely know without any doubt the reaction that I will receive from her. So I just decided to sit and watch them do their things and make their mistakes, I was there when aunty Paula came out and called me into the Kitchen, no, she never did call me, she literally dragged me to the kitchen, ok, not as she dragged me, but she held my hand and pulled me up, and gave me a gesture that meant follow me, I actually did, I followed her to the kitchen, mom was still in her room, during this time, she was yet to come out, I overheard her praying before I left, these days I have not been praying, since mom and I no longer prayed together. So I joined aunty Paula in the kitchen, it wasn't like she had anything to give me or is there any help she needed from me, she just wanted to talk to me concerning our leaving and the happenings in the house, when I got in there she was just about to start slicing carrots, she wanted to make noodles that morning, she raised up her head and gave me that look of concern which ostensibly the do not like, it makes me feel vulnerable, I really do not like pity, I am not ye kind of person who craves sympathy, I hate it, sometimes, the expression of "sorry" alone is enough to dive me over the edge, not go say the literal words.

"My dear, it really breaks my heart to know that your mom and you will be leaving us today, but we hope to see you again soon, tomorrow if possible, I have already in my mind concluded how we will all celebrate this Christmas together as a family, I hurt me know why you are leaving, your friend who I know you care for is now misbehaving against you. I understand how that feels, I know you feel left out in this world, I know you feel that you are punished for a sin you know nothing about. But I will like to tell you this, I know that it might not really have any significance for you, but I will still say ut anyway, I will like to tell you that I love you, and I am with you a hundred percent. I will also want you to accept who you are, stop the self-hate and be proud of who you are, do not let what people think about bring you down, so not let their venomous words get into you, build an unpenetrable mind, which no negative word can ever be able to scale through. And also, most importantly, I want you to take care of your mom, she loves you for the whole of her life, and for that, she can do anything just to make you happy, even if it has to do with her discomfort, that friend of mine is ready to die for you, I mean literal death, that is the level of love she has for you, so my boy, I will like it if the feeling is mutual, she can sacrifice anything to be with you, I pray that you do not pick anyone above her, because that will only lead to her death, she might die, very likely that she will die if she had to go on to live alone without you. My dear, time shall come when your father might come to take you along, you are a son of the sea, while she is the daughter on earth, so he can ever survive underwater, so, following your father means abandoning her, and that will definitely kill her. Im sur you know that she is doing all of this for you, she is going to live with a man whom she currently hated for the whole of her life because of you. This mother of yours is ready to throw her life away for you."

So she said.