Chapter 75

We continued the day in that same particular vibe, just me marveling at the way he seemed shy and aloof at the same time, and he looking at me with a sort of wondrous fascination. I think he still hasn't out lived the shock that I took him through this afternoon, and so I reassure him by at least touching my legs and making them look sore. I can't say he appreciated the gesture so much, as he seemed even more embarrassed and pissed off that I was trying to fake my emotions for him.

This got me laughing, and then we both ended up laughing. The sun in the sky seemed to shine brightly upon the both of us, as the chair i had once shared with Aron, I now shared with someone else.

Someone who i barely knew nothing about, but yet who seemed to make me so weak in the knees, and made my heart beat like it was going to jump out of its cage. I seem to think about the attraction that I am feeling for this new boy, this guy has barely been in school for a week, and yet is making me feel more nervous than all the guys in school combined.

I can't seem to get my heart straight, as I can feel myself falling for Eras but yet Clay makes me feel something I haven't felt in a long time now. He makes me feel secure, like he's never going to let anyone hurt me. That feeling vanished with the death of my parents, and sure enough my aunt has done everything in her power to make sure we felt safe and protected, but yet it seemed I couldn't get that feeling back.

Clay makes me feel that same particular feeling all over again, like my parents were back and none of my past tragedies had ever happened. The way he seemed to keep quiet and wait for me to talk at every turn, the way his eyes seem to always steal glances at me, and I'd find myself being almost lost in the warmness of them.

I can't find words to describe how he makes me feel, as I think all the butterflies in my stomach are basically going on the rampage each time I look at him.

Why am I feeling this way?, I ask myself and yet no answer seems to be coming forth. I thought I promised myself not to get involved with anyone anymore, but yet here I am slowly falling like the mess that is my life.

"How's your mum?" I ask him, and the surprise in his eyes quickly changes to delight. The reaction that passes his face so rapidly makes me feel my insides involuntarily contracting, to let the roar of laughter that seems to have been kept inside all this time out, and I laughed good and hard at the change of his expressions.

He just seems to look at me silently wondering, what exactly is wrong with me?. I love this feeling, I totally adore it.