Chapter 57

He's suprised I actually called him a cheating wretch, but Isn't that what he is?. Barely two months we were dating, and you'd been having sex with this chic for far more than that.

Now he's at the end of the road. I'm no more willing to play the role of the girl who wants to ignore the advances he made on her waist or how his hand seemed to graze the parts that I didn't want him to. I'm not willing to be the girl that would simply ignore her boyfriend acting all horny and pent up, whenever they were five minutes together.

I wasn't ready and that's, that. If he say he loves me than he should be able to endure with me, and wait for me, shouldn't he. If Aron had loved me, he should have waited for me, if he had loved me how he said he did, then I shouldn't have had to see myself begging and being broadcasted on the school screens.

He dosen't love me, and that's the simple fact. Im not sure he actually knows what love is. It's not all about the beauty, and the sex, nope. Love is that feeling that makes it hard for you to breathe, it's, it's that feeling that envelopes you in a sensation of it's own, it's not something that little kids dive into unprepared for.

It's something that could make you and give you happiness for the rest of your life, it could also wreck you as a person and make you lose who you are. My love with Aron was an unrequited love. He didn't love me the way I loved him. He didn't cherish me the way I cherished him, sure we had happy moments that would forever be etched into my memories, but the fact still remains that he does not know what love is.

If he's found it out then maybe we can come talk another day, in the farthest future that is. I feel someone grab my hand and see Aron getting the closest I think he could possibly even get, to my definition of soulful eyes. I used to think his eyes were beautiful once. I used to think they held all the warmth of the world in those deep brown eyes "Arya I'm really sorry for what happened between us, okay. I'm like really really sorry and Is there any way you can forgive me?" The way his voice is loud enough to make everyone hear exactly what he was saying makes me want to slap him, he's messing with me, he wants to use me as a payback to the girl that has jilted him and now he's felt what betrayal feels like.

"Are you sure it won't happen again?" I ask in a meek tone, the triumphant glint in his eyes almost makes me drop the act that I'm putting on and start laughing. He thinks he's the only smooth actor in the class, I'll shock him dead.

"Yes!" He says giving me his brightest smile "Too bad, I'd have loved to see you break my heart again". The shock on his face is comical. Ten points for Arya.