Chapter 136

They decide not to answer my questions at all, and I find them sharing something of a mutual silence, well the silence seems to be more on Oakley's side 

"At least let me know what is going on" i say, and Scott shoots me a glare that tells me I should get a hold on my emotions, and banish whatever thoughts I am having in my head.

I realise with something of embarrassment that he is probably right, it seems in the excitement of thinking my brother and best friend were crushing on each other, I realise i had totally forgotten that Oakley just went through a breakup not two days ago. She just went through a breakup that had her crying like a baby, and wailing at the fact that she had given her life to some stupid boy, and yet he'd handed it back to her shattered, telling her it's over through a video call, a stupidly stupid video call which shows that he did not have the balls to come and meet her in person.

I realise now that shipping my brother and best friend together at this point, so early into her breakup would be totally inconsiderate and foolish of me. I almost wonder what she's thinking of me at this moment, she must think I am an idiotic friend, someone who doesn't really care about her and who doesn't take notice of her feelings.

All the shame and disgrace that this sort of thing should elicit seems to crash onto me all at once, and I can feel my face turn hot and embarrassed. 

"Oakley, I'm really, reallly sorry. I didn't realise......." I say starting an apology, but yet she just places a finger and on my lips. "There's nothing to be sorry about, you are my best friend, and I will understand if you tend to get carried away sometimes".

I'm still not sure if this is sincere forgiveness, or just some of those types of forgiveness that would entail the person secretly harboring the hurt in their hearts as they decided to cut off all ties with you. I don't think I can ever be happy if Oakley actually decided to hold hate in her heart towards me. 

"I'm really sorry" I say once again, and she puts an arm over my shoulder. 

"Do you know why I said you were dumb?" she asked warmly, her expression from before is gone and now it is replaced with something of a conspiratorial grin. She looks at me and gestures to Scott. 

"Do you know him well enough?" she asks. At first I don't think I hear the question correctly, but then I suddenly do. Do I know my brother well enough???.

 It seems even I do not believe the sort of conviction I hoped to have added with that sarcastic question. The truth still remains I do not know my brother.

I do not know the sort of person he is, but I silently wonder, why would Oakley be asking me such a thing. 

"I'm still finding out along the way" I say quietly, and she nods her head to something of a satisfied expression. 

"You'll find out a lot today"