Chapter 182

You know there's this vibe you get, this feeling when you know something huge is about to go down, when you know that something that will inevitably leave someone broken is about to happen, and that is the feeling that I'm getting.

That is the feeling that I am so happily getting while I sip the milkshake that Clay passed towards me. He seems to be so delighted at watching me eat that he simply keeps on passing new things towards me. I'm pretty sure that I had eaten a graham cracker parfait just a few minutes ago, I didn't even think that sort of thing was around, but it was delicious, even if it was just a few bites that I had taken.

No matter how much I love food, I can't be that shameless as to actually finish the whole cup. I passed the rest towards him and offered him something of a nice and gratifying stare, that same flash of colour creeps onto his face and I chuckle delightedly at this.

Adrian is watching the both of us with something of a nostalgic look in his eyes, he's watching the both of us with something of a fascinated expression and it seems only now do I see exactly who is lying under all the bravado.

It seems only now do I see who is lying under the amused and kind face, only now do I see who is lying under all the betrayal that he had just committed a few moments earlier. It would just so happened that like everyone else, Adrian is also scared. He's scared and he's unsure of himself, and I'm guessing that's why ha had allowed Celaena use him so much.

I had thought this new revelation into his true nature would make me feel some sympathy towards him, but yet I do not. I don't even know what is going through my heart right now, just having Clay near me is enough to make all my feelings and emotions go into overdrive, not to talk of the devilish grin on Oakley's face, the grin that is telling me she still constructing her words in the way that they hurt the most.

She's still still trying to arrange her words in the way that will have the most effect. Oakley has always been one that was the best with words, even if it's down to little fights between the both of us, she always had some snide remark or some little funny quip that would make us end up laughing and totally forget the fight we even had.

I'm guessing whatever she's about to say to Adrian won't leave him laughing, there is every possibility that it will leave him feeling horrible, and sad, and broken, and I find I do not want that. I do not want him to feel more horrible than he already feels, I do not want her to make him feel more insecure about himself, for all the popularity and fame that this little boy has gotten.

I realise that he's still exactly just that, he's still a little boy.