Chapter 233

"You know that there's this particular phenomenon of high School having broken everybody who passed through it, even those who did not look broken on the outside, always had one thing of horror or the other to share about their stay in high school. Ever since I was in middle school, I was determined not to experience this. Ever since I had watched this movie mum and dad had warned me not to watch, but which had told me of the horrors of high school in full detail, I decided that I will never be like that.

There was one particular character that struck my fancy, a girl who was simply cold and indifferent to everyone around her, she didn't let anyone step on her toes, she didn't let anyone to treats her unseemingly or make her feel like she was less than, she did what was in her mind and she didn't give anyone the chance to even be near her to judge. That was what I thought to be, even if this character in the movie inevitably ended up more broken than the others, I wanted that protection that her character provided her. I wanted that protection that her cold and distant character provided her while she was in high school and so I simply took it upon myself to become like that.

I can't say it's not working isn't it?" .

Scott's explanation surprises me, it shocks me up to the point that I feel my breath being withheld unconsciously from my system. So he had picked up this cold and distant character from a movie, he picked it up because he didn't want to face the sort of horror that other kids are facing kn high school.

Even if it was working, I can still see that it has had its effectsm with the way he behaved with Adrian, and the way he behaves on a normal, I can easily deduce that my brother will be happier being himself.

He will be happy not pretending to be someone else, or not taking on the attributes and features of anyone else. He would be happier if he was himself but yet I do not know how to say this.

"Are you guys done with your questions?" He asks and I shake my head. I know that I am treading on something of a dangerous ground here but yet there's still an impulse that drives me to ask this question.

There is an impulse that drives me to ask this particularly dangerous question and for a moment I feel cold enough, I feel cowardly enough to not ask him but anxiety and curiosity still win finally.

"What is your relationship with Adrian?" I ask him, and even Oakley, Oakley who has been acting so indifferently to all this, who had been acting so cool at the fact that we have been asking each other questions about our various emotions, even she opened her eyes in surprise.

"Can you repeat that again?" Scott asks his eyes not even meeting mine. I'm guessing this is something of an intimidation, or a test.