Chapter 264

"Is there something that I do not know here?" I ask Oakley.

I know the answer to this, I know the answer to every question that pops up in my head but still I want her to say it. I wanted her to also admit that my brother is keeping me in the dark about a part of his life.

"There are a lot of things that you don't know" she says. She says it so off handedly that instead of me to feel bad, or to feel angry, I simply feel nothing. I don't feel anything because it is a fact that has already been established.

I don't really know anything about Scott's life. I don't know anything about him, and as much as I'd like to be involved, I find that he might not let me, he might not give me the chance to be as involved as I would want to be and I wonder why that is.

"Are you going to keep standing there looking at him, or are you going to say something?" I say to Adrian.

My words carry across the hall and the playing stops. It stops, so cynically abruptly that I actually feel the pangs of loneliness at the fact that such melodious singing, such melodious playing has stopped.

Scott's eyes land on me and his mouth suddenly erupts into a smile. It widens and cracks into such a child like smile as he tilts his head to the side.

"You're finally here" he says, and even with the way he's acting you would know that he was drunk. He was so drunk that I was pleased that he recognized me in his drunken state.

"I'm finally here" i say to him, and the smile on his face widens significantly.

"Even know, you know I've missed you a lot?" He says and I'm confused. I open my mouth only to shut it once more. I should be a little bit worried at exactly how much my brother got himself drunk.

Exactly how much had he gotten drunk on alcohol that he was practically around me rambling nonsense at this point.

Well it is normal when you are drunk, but he had with the sort of control he had going just before now, I realise that there might be something inside so strong that he cannot wrap his head around it when he's sane.

"Let's go home" he says.

He's practically walking towards me at this point. He is walking towards me so steadily that I thought he would actually get to me. For some weird reason, this, there's a symbolic meaning in my eyes for this. From my point of view this is actually a little bit symbolic. Him walking towards me could finally mean that he would allow me into his life. It would finally mean that he would walk towards me unhinged and ready to let me know the facts about who he truly is, but surprising enough, as if life would at least let me know that wouldn't be possible so many times over, someone steps in front of him.

Someone steps in front of him and he bumps into that person softly, and irritation practically gurgles up in my throat when I see platinum silver hair.