Chapter 383

"That amusement park isn't a place for kids" I say looking at her and she rolls her eyes at me.

"Did you seriously just call me a kid?" 

I nod my head , i nod my head because what she's suggesting, what she suggesting is definitely going to be another roller coaster of emotions.

I mean exactly how possible is it that we just get to visit an exclusive water park.

"I mean exactly what are we going to wear".

If she thinks that I'm going to wear something that will reveal my skin then I am not going to do it. She sees my defiance.

I'm not going to do it at all.

"But it is a waterpark...." she says looking at me and I nod my head.

"Yes, it is a waterpark, but you are not mandated to get into the water are you. If you want to go sliding down a ramp in only your underwear then please do so".

She looks at me, she looks at me and she sighs loudly.

"Exactly when are you going to become loose? she says and I have to cock an eyebrow up at her.

"What do you mean by loose?".

"I mean when are you going to free yourself, when are you going to have fun, when are you going to stop moping around because Aron hurt you"

"He isn't the only one that has hurt me!!, each and every other person before him has made me into what I am"

"Then do you want to give them the satisfaction of making you a closed-off person?" she says.

She says this as calmly as she can but yet it hits me. It hits me in the deepest part of my heart because that is the same question that I have been asking myself.

It is the logical thing to do isn't it?.

It is the logical thing to do that after you have experienced something tragic, you simply retire into your shell and you protect yourself with all of your might. You protect the only person that matters most but yet is that what I have doing?.

Is that what I am doing?.

I can still interact with people without having to hurt myself can't I?.

I have done it already.

I have been with Clay and Eras and I am yet to get hurt, instead, I'm feeling even better. I have interacted with Adrian, and even though that had a little bit of a bump along the way, still I am feeling okay.

It isn't really necessary for me to shut myself off, and I can get what she's saying.

I can get what she's saying but yet, a waterpark???, especially with Clay and Eras around.

I am a human being, I am a human being who's brain might decide to act on foolish emotion before it listens to reason so I am not in a fit state to be going to a water park right now.

"Just tag along will you?" she says looking at me and I nod my head.

"We need to get out of here before aunt comes back".