Chapter 397

"Are you sure that you really have to go?" I say looking at him and he nods.

"This is the last time that we'll talk about it right?" He says and I nod.

I nod because I want this to be the last time, I want this to be the last time that we talk about it but still I'm going to think about it. I'm still going to think about it a lot more than we have talked about it and I am feeling very very satisfied at this fact.

I'm also feeling very very sorry at the fact that i will not get to see him for some months.

"You have your phone with you don't you, we can FaceTime, we can talk, plus you'll also be spending some time with Clay won't you?".

He asks me this question and I have to choke on my breath. I have to choke on my breath because exactly what did he say??.

"Who gave you the notion that i will be spending any time with Clay?" I say looking at him and he simply nods his head.

"You don't have to worry about that, you don't have to feel scared, I know how you feel towards him. I know how you feel towards me too".

He looks very endearing, he looks very endearing and considerate and I simply have to roll my eyes at this.

I mean exactly how will I not miss him when he leaves, exactly how will I not miss him when he acts like this, he acts like it simply understands everything that is around me, he acts like he gets me, he gets each and every part of me and I have to shoot him a very appreciative look.

"Alright then, you can go to England. I'll be waiting for you.I promise".

"I'll get something for you when I'm coming back" he says wiggling his eyebrows and I nod smiling at this.

I begin sipping the milkshake that he has bought for me.

Seriously I could get used to this life, I could get used to the lifestyle of simply having a very caring Eras to look after me but yet the moment I think about it, the moment I think about it I find myself simply cringing.

Am I really ready for that sort of commitment?, am i ready for that sort of commitment from anybody?, but we haven't really spoken on anything about commitment and I realise i am deviating at this point.

I am deviating at this point.

We haven't even spoken about a relationship, he only told me that he likes me which should be normal.

It is normal for a guy to like a girl, it is normal for a girl to also like a guy although not with the level of awkwardness that I currently like Eras with.

Yes I have to admit it now, i have to admit it now.

I like Eras. I like him a lot more than I would like to admit and I continue sipping my milkshake. I am doomed.