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" How about we help each other?" He says and I look up at him, eyes still wet from the tears streaming down my cheeks, heart freshly broken from the public humiliation and betrayal that was Lucas's breakup. I can faintly make out the first droppings of snow floating magically under the light of the street lamps. It's that time of the year, a time for wool coats, a time for relaxing, none of which I'll be doing. "I'm an orphan with a wicked aunt and a boyfriend who left her because she has nothing to her name, how could I possibly help you?" I say another sob escaping my lips. "Marry me" he replies and my eyes widen in anger. Is he mocking me?. I look into the eyes of this stranger and see he's dead serious. "I need a wife, you need a home, marry me and you'll have all you want". I nod.

A Snowy Marriage (A Christmas agreement)

Utter chaos is happening around me, chaos is happening around me, I might even ne aiding it because for some weird reason I'm also walking around and doing my little bit to knock people unconscious here and there.

I don't even know who I'm touching. I don't know who I am knocking unconscious, it's almost like my body moves with a will of its own and I am scared.

I am scared at this now, before I had simply been fascinated, before that I was surprised, an utter and complete suprise that would not let me feel any other emotion than a deadly calm, but right now, right now I'm scared.

I'm scared because this isn't me, this isn't me. I am not supposed to be moving this fast, everything is practically not supposed to be going on in a blur around me, and I don't know why I am doing this.

I want to take control of myself, i want to gain control of my body again but yet it seems I cannot.

It is almost like I've been pushed into a part of my brain, a part of my brain that is dormant and will not exact control over my body.

What is happening???, what the heck is happening.

I am terrified and scared. I am scared enough that I seem to snap out of whatever trance that was making me move this quickly or carry out these deadly actions. I snap out and I I simply stumble onto the floor.

I stumble onto the floor and I pass out.

Darkness is a relief to me, Darkness is a relief to me because I realise now that I truly need the rest. I need rest from the emotional upheaval that is this place, and even as I am unconscious it seems my brain is still working.

My brain is still working to give me a possible explanation at to exactly what is happening here?.

Maybe I have been possessed, maybe I am possessed and it is another thing that is living in my body and I'm just expecting that I'm just a spectator to this new thing that has taken over me.

I'm really sure that five minutes before all this started, five minutes before this all started i was totally aware of myself.

I was aware of each and every limbrthat I had, I was aware of the breath that I was breathing in but yet it seems now, something is intent on showing me that I'm not the one who controls myself anymore.

I am being controlled by something else and this has a devastating effect.

It is more than devastating, it is surprising because how is this even possible?.

I mean I am unconscious and I'm still thinking, is that even possible??.

I can feel myself, i can feel my hands and my legs but yet it is, it's just like my brain has taken the decision to simply shut down on its own.

I let it. It gives me some rest and reprieve from what is happening.

I wonder at what is going on outside, the last thing I saw was a deadly massacre.

Chapter 164