Chapter33:miss clean freak.

I was woken up by a phone ringing and it was obviously not my phone because of the ringtone.

"Alex, your phone is ringing. Pick it up I need to sleep some more."I said with my eyes closed. My head hurt so bad and I just felt like staying in bed all day long. Effects of drinking like silly. The phone kept ringing and that's when I opened my eyes and and saw that Alex was not in the room. I took his phone to shut it from ringing anymore. I saw it was a number without a name. I thought it was his business phone call so I just muted it instead of picking it up.

I got out of the bed and I felt like dying. My head was killing me. The door then was opened and I looked to see Alex coming with a smiling face.

"You're awake?" He asked and I nodded. My throat hurt too then I remembered how I had puked my guts out at night." Take this pill maybe it will help. And I was serious last night, you're never drinking again like that. If I'm not with you then there is no drinking. I'm I clear." He said sternly meaning that I can't argue with him. I sighed then nodded as I took the pill and I put it on my tongue then he poured me water in a glass and I drank.

"Thank you." I sincerely thanked him because if it were not for him then, I don't know how I would have handled myself last night.

"No need to thank me. It's my responsibility to take care of you." He said with a smile.

"Yeah but still thanks."I said and then he shrugged.

"Now I wonna listen to that shitty plan you had for your first kiss. I wonna hear it now since you pretended to forget about it after you promised to tell me."he said and I slapped my forehead. Shit!! I can't tell him about that dumb plan.

"It's dumb I don't think I can say it."I said as I went to the closet to get some new bed covers. I came and removed the dirty ones while Alex just looked at me with a silly smile on his face as he sat on the couch. I replaced the sheets and covers and took the dirty ones to the laundry basket then I remembered I had to do some laundry yesterday. I'll probably do it today.

"We'll miss clean freak, I wonna listen to the dumb plan."he said as he came to sit on the bed with me.

"But I haven't taken a shower and haven't brushed my teeth yet. Can you wait for a few minutes." I said now standing up. I was looking for an escape but when he pulled my waist to sit back down I knew I was done for.

"You have to promise me that you will not laugh.", I told him and he nodded." Well I had this crazy idea where I wanted a very handsome guy to kiss me on this big roof top. I used to read these romance novels to give me some ideas but then my life got complicated and I didn't understand my feelings anymore. My hatred for my dad had hit me bad that I started giving up on many things more so about love and staff. I stopped reading the stupid romance books because I stopped believing in love. Do you believe in love Alex?" I asked him looking at him.

"What do you think?"he asked back instead.

"How would I know, I'm not in your head."I looked at him funnily like he was the most foolish person on earth.

"I'm willing to try with you. How about we try together."he said.

"You mean you have never fallen in love in your life?" I looked at him surprised. He didn't reply he just smiled but I didn't pry anymore.

"Why did you want a kiss on a roof top. Isn't that weird?" He asked.

"Is it? Well I thought it was kinda romantic. Like when I'm having my first kiss on top the world. It's cute."I shrugged and he chuckled calling me a weirdo and I frowned at him.

"Why do you hate your dad so much?" He asked and I didn't know what to tell him.

"That's a story for another day. I don't like talking about him because he has caused a lot of pain on my mother and more importantly I tend to pretend he doesn't exist because of him knowing my existence and he hasn't even once taken an initiative to see me. For 23 fucking years. I heard he remarried but I don't care. My mom keeps saying it's not his fault that she got pregnant but he didn't want to let him know so he hid the pregnancy from him but that doesn't matter. So long as he's the fucking sperm donor and he knows of my existence he should be able to see me right. I grew up feeling like a child who was born and his dad doesn't want her. Like I'm not worth it. Do you know how fucking it hurts giving yourself hopes that one day your dad is gonna want to see you but years pass and you end up losing all your hopes when you notice that day isn't gonna come. You see how stupid you were then you start changing. The feeling where you see other people smiling with their dads and talking and doing all those shit but you remember yours is alive but cannot make even a fucking second for you. Only a second. I... I....." I couldn't say anymore because right now I was a sobbing mess. Alex pulled me into his lap and I hugged him immediately and tightly. I cried on his chest and Alex didn't say anything.

"Shhhh. Baby don't cry anymore please. I'm sorry for bringing the story I didn't know it was a sensitive one for you. I'm sorry okay. Please don't cry anymore." Alex said wiping my tears from my cheeks.

"I have never allowed any man in my life Alex except Shawn but because he's gay I guess and we grew together. I grew isolating myself from boys. I'm always afraid they will turn like my dad, disappointing and not loving and caring. Please don't disappoint me Alex. I really need to have a new perception of men. I had always been traumatized and when I saw how my mom has suffered because of men then I lost faith in men. I'm willing to bet my fears on you Alex. Don't let me lose to my fears." I said looking at Alex who was looking at me pity eyes." And don't fucking me that look. I don't like being pitied. I'm better than my mom. That woman has gone through alot but I'm grateful she's always been there for me. She's the strongest woman I know. Anyways the rest is for another day. I can see how curious to know what has happened to her but not today."I said smiling.

"I have heard you loud and clear. I can't promise but I'll try so hard not to do your don'ts okay. Now smile a little  baby. We will work this together me and you alright?" He said and I nodded and I gave him a sincere smile.

Your phone was ringing earlier."I told him now I remembered."but I didn't pick it up."I added.

"Okay baby go freshen up and wear super cute we are going out today."he said and I got out of his lap as he took his phone and called I guess the number that had called earlier.

"Hello. Who's this?"he asked and I saw him furrow his eyebrows. He had this frown and I had this urge to straighten the brows so he can retain his handsome face. He hung up and he looked at his phone like he had seen a ghost.

"What is it? Is there something wrong?" I asked and he shook his head slowly giving me that fake smile. I have started knowing a little about him and noticed a few things about him too.

"Nothing baby. Go freshen up baby."  He said and I didn't ask anymore. I went to the bathroom wondering what it was that made him worry that much.