Chapter55: Lexi 1

I found Alex in the bedroom. He had just taken a shower and his hair was wet. I looked at his face and now that I pay much attention to it I could see them. The dark circles though not really visible but they were there. I walked closer to him and I lifted my hand to draw circles there.

"When was the last time you slept honey?"I asked him and he didn't reply. He just looked at me smiling. I could smell his scent from where I was but I couldn't let that distract me.

"You are not here to ask that, are you?"he asked and I smiled. He reads me so well.

"Yeah, but I'm really worried though. When did you sleep, lastly?"I asked.

"I'm adjusting to the time here so don't worry."he said and I looked at him seriously.

"That's not the answer to the question I asked."I told him.

"I know but can we drop that. Furthermore, my answer is closer to that answer you expected."he said and I just nodded my head.

"Okay, whatever. You and I have serious things to talk about."I told him and I took his hand and I led him to the couch in the bedroom. He sat down and I sat next to him.

"Okay, this is about Melissa, Alex. Why are you mad at her? She's been doing great being here 'watching' me which for your information I'm not a kid to be watched Alex. You gave her a lot of work to do, she's busy with her work and did you really think or consider what she really wants before sending her here? Maybe she's uncomfortable Alex, did you even think about that?"I asked him.

"She's my sister, she's not supposed to be complaining doing favours for me."he said like it's a fact. I don't really know about that but if I put my situation and my mother's and say that my mom should watch my boyfriend without complaining will that be okay just because she's my mom? No that would not be okay because my mom can be uncomfortable and maybe I could be disrupting her work. If my boyfriend was a cripple then it would be another case.

"I think she should complain baby?"I said looking at him.

"What did you say?"he asked looking at me shocked.

"I think she should complain. Let me put you in a situation where you have to watch over her boyfriend who is okay and functioning normally. Would you be happy about it and you have your own things to do?"I asked him and he kept quiet." Now that's what I was talking about okay. You have to put yourself in her shoes too."I told him and I crawled on his lap. He held me tightly and I laid on his chest.

"That's not even why I'm mad at her. She said something about my sister."he said and I looked at him. Now this is what I wanted. I held his cheeks in my palms and I looked at him.

"You mean Lexi?"I asked him and he nodded.

"Yeah. She was my twin sister."he said.

"Wait, what? You had a twin sister?"I asked him curiously.

"Yeah, but she's uuuum, she died."he said and I looked at him."in my arms."he added.

"Ooh I'm so sorry baby. I'm so so so sorry."I told him hugging him in my arms. I let him lay his head on my boobs because he loves putting his head there.

"She umm... I really wish that time can move backwards sometimes. I really would have given her what she wanted. She told me not to tell my mom that she had stolen the money but I wanted to mess with her so I told her that I'm gonna snitch her to mom. She was my daddy's girl so she ran out of the door claiming she is going to tell dad that she didn't. My dad would have believed her anyway because he loved her so much that even if she was telling lies, he would have believed her. So she ran out and I followed her telling her how my dad will not believe her because she's a bad child and she's used to lying and dad would not believe her this time. She started screaming that I'm lying and I was so focused on messing with her that we didn't see a car coming. She moved further to the road and the next moment a car came crushing on her. It was a hit and run situation. The driver didn't even stop but I saw the number plates. I looked at my sister who laid on the ground lifeless. I run to her and held her in my arms begging her to hold on but she was losing a lot of blood. 

I screamed calling for my parents and anyone who could help. My friends are the one who came first because we were neighbors. My sister was just crying and blood oozed from her head.

"Lex, what the hell happened. What's all this blood?"Felix asked me but I couldn't even talk. I couldn't even think about anything except my dying sister. I looked at her lifeless face.

"I love you Alex so much."she told and I shook my head.

"Please don't talk just try your best to stay with me okay. I will not tell mom, I was just messing with you okay. I was not serious. Drew, Felix, go call for help. Any kind of help."I shouted at my friends who left immideately. I continued whispering sweet words to my beautiful sister. All I wanted was for her to live but I think luck was not on my side as well as her side. 

I looked at her and I felt her go stiff. I couldn't feel any movement that I could feel before. Her eyes were not even moving. I was so young at that time, I was six years old going seven in two days. I couldn't understand what had really happened. I didn't know that my sister had left me but I felt it. I felt like something had left me. I couldn't understand that feeling at that time but I deal with that every day Kimberly." Alex said still on my boobs and I was a crying mess right now. I couldn't stop the stupid tears from flowing down my cheeks.

"I'm so sorry Alex."that's all I could say because I didn't have anything else to say.

"Yeah, I know baby. I have lived with all the guilt all my life. I killed my twin and nothing can change that. Everyone tells me it's not my fault but it is. If only I could stop messing with her, maybe nothing like that would have happened. After that I vowed that I will always live for her. For two lives. Her life and mine. Maybe that way I can atone for my mistake."he said and I held his head up so that he can look at me. Damn he was crying. My heart really was aching for him. I wiped his cheeks and kissed his eyes. 

"Look at me baby."I told him and he looked at me."nothing is your fault okay. You are allowed to feel guilty but you are not supposed to feel guilty okay. You didn't know a car would appear from anywhere and hit her. You have sacrificed a lot for her and I'm sure she's very proud of you."I told him and he nodded smiling.