Chapter67:lose control

Grandma and I entered the house then we cleaned up the dirty dishes and later we went to bed. I followed her to her to her room and you can't imagine how I have missed it. I just wanted to look at it and maybe sleep with her for a while. After she slept, I got out and I went to my bedroom. Alex was not in the room and I wondered where he's and since he can't be gone I decided to take a shower first maybe he will be in the room once I get out of the shower.

I wore my pajama short and Alex's t-shirt as usual and went to bed. He had come back and I just knew he hadn't gone too far.

"Heey, when did you arrive?"he asked me looking at me. 

"Not long ago, I just took a shower. Where did you go? I didn't see you when I came."I told him and I went and sat on his lap. I've been doing that a lot lately but I can't help it. His laps are my best seat ever.

"I just went outside the porch. I can't believe this house has a back porch."he said hugging me tighter in his arms. I can't believe he's excited because of a back porch. Most bungalows don't have it but it's not something unusual.

"Of course it does have a back porch. I used to stay there some nights when I was mad at my grandma."I told him and he laughed.

"I can only imagine and with your stubbornness, your grandma must have had a hard time."he said and I looked at him. I'm not stubborn at all.

"I'm not stubborn, you just think I am but I am not."I defended myself and he just laughed. 

"Whatever keeps you happy baby."he said still laughing and I scrowled at him." The guest left?"he asked when he quieted down.

"Yeah, tomorrow they are coming too."I told him and I waited for a reaction but I didn't get any so I continued," grandma suggested that we visit the ranch tomorrow and have some fun."

"Your grandma owns a ranch?"he asked surprised.

"Yeah, I have never told you?" I asked and he shook his head." Well she does. It was something my late grandpa left behind but it was not as big as it is right now. When my uncles grew up they bought my grandma some more land to extend it. But it's not here like here at this land. It's about one kilometre away."I told Alex who just nodded.

"That is great. I think we are going to have fun tomorrow."he said smiling.

"Yeah, but the annoying guest will be here too."I said frowning.

"Who cares if they will be here. You just have to ignore them and do whatever you want."he said and made it sound so easy. It's not that easy when there is a pretentious bitch leeching on your boyfriend.

"I'll try."I said squirming on his lap then I felt it. His little friend down there was getting harder and harder. My eyes hung open and I looked at Alex who was smiling. He can't be smiling when he is getting horny right now.

"I can't control it."he said smiling and he hugged me tighter. I felt it poke at my entrance and I got nervous.

"Alex...."I called him nervously.

"Sorry baby about this but can we stay like this longer. You are the one who made it look like this. You make me lose control every time. So just give me this okay?"he said and I got out of the hug angry.

"Are you blaming me for making you hard? This is not my... you know... It's not mine."I said blushing so hard.

"It's not? That's weird because it is yours for you to take care of and cherish."he said and I looked at him confused." Don't worry my naive baby girl you will find out soon what I'm talking about."he added smiling.

He hugged me again and I laid my head on his chest. It was still poking me and I think it's gotten bigger. Instead of nervousness, I felt warm and hot. I could feel myself getting wet down there and I think I should get up from his lap right now.

"Alex... I'm getting hot. I think it's time you release me."I said and I looked up only to see Alex's face covered in sweat. I panicked and I moved on his lap to hold his face but he held me in place."Alex what are you doing? You are sweating too much. Maybe you are not feeling well...."he interrupted me.

"Just stay still okay. I'm not sick, I just need to calm down. I need that lavender scent of yours maybe it's gonna do some magic."he said and he burried his head on my shoulder. I'm really confused as to why he needs me on his lap when I am the one who is making him horny.

"Fuck!!"he cursed out loud and struggled to look up. Okay, this is getting crazy and weird.

"Alex, what is wrong?"I asked when I couldn't even lift my head up because of his hug.

"I need a cold shower, your scent isn't helping."he said and he put me down on the bed and went to the bathroom. I too felt hot and I was kinda felt worried about Alex. After staying on the bed for a while I decided to follow him to the bathroom.

I found him standing on the shower butt naked with his eyes tightly closed. His one hand was on the bathroom walls supporting him while the other had been balled into a fist. I stripped too and I stepped in the shower and he opened his eyes.

"What are you doing baby?"he asked and I looked up at him. I don't know what I'm doing really. He's making me feel quilty or maybe I just want to be with him. I don't know.

"I don't know."I replied smiling.

"Baby, you can't be here and most importantly naked like this Infront of me. I can't lose control which I am barely keeping it up. You don't know how I want you right now. You make me crazy and I can't even control my dick from getting hard. Your scent is just making me more hard and now you're here naked with those sexy boobs of yours. Fuck!!"he breathed raising his hand to his hair and run it in between his beautiful strands. He looked frustrated and in pain and I don't know what came over me.

I tiptoed and kissed him so hard and I didn't care about the falling water. I kissed him hungrily because I really was hungry. Hungry for those lips for his touch and something else too which I didn't fully understand. He broke from the kiss and looked at me.

"We can't do this baby. You can't lose your virginity like this. We have to be married first, remember your grandma's words okay. I can't make you break the promise."he said and looked at him. I never told him that. As if reading my questions he added,"I overheard your conversation the first time we talked on that video call."he said and I smiled. I can't believe he's so sweet and always thinking of me and putting me first before everything.

"Thanks for always putting me first. It's really mean so much to me."I said smiling at him.

"Of course. I will always have to put you first because I love you. That's why you are not supposed to be here."he said and I looked at him.

"I can help."I suddenly said. Fuck!I cursed inwardly. I don't know why I said that.