Chapter205:ex best friend

"Andrew will be here soon. Can you please don't be so hard on him sweetheart?"Alex told me and I smiled at him.

"What's make you think I'll be hard on him? We are just gonna have a conversation, that's all."I said shrugging and at that time, Andrew came in. He looked at Alex first then at me." I was wondering if you are gonna take for ever. How have you been? You look awful dude."I said and I could feel Alex holding my thigh underneath the dining table maybe to shut me up but I'm not going to. This man here almost killed him and he expects me to easy? That's not gonna happen maybe if a miracle happens.

"I'm sorry I took so long to arrive Kimberly."Andrew apologized looking all apologetic. That sorry ass face of his isn't gonna move me at all. I want a real talk with him.

"Alex honey, can you give us some privacy?"I looked at Alex who raised a brow at me. What does he think? I'm not sure about this? I know he's gonna ask that and I don't need that question at all."I'll be fine, I just want to have a really serious conversation with your best friend or is it ex best friend. I doubt you are still friends now."I said mockingly at Andrew. I don't give a shit about his feelings right now. Why would I, if I lost my husband, what would I do?

"Okay then, but please go easy on him."he whispered in my right ear then he kissed my lips. He stood and left without sparing Andrew a single glance. Actually, it's funny how he's telling me to be easy in him while he himself is doing the opposite.

"So, Andrew, I bet Alex called you personally? And if he did then you already know what we are gonna talk about right?"I asked eating the fruits that Alex had put in my plate.

"Alex didn't call me, the buttler called."he replied and I looked at him.

"Oooh... then my husband must be mad at you big time. Anyways, sit down and order whatever you want, I want to have a serious conversation on why you decided to make me almost a widow."I said wiping my lips with the napkins. He sat down opposite me all nervous. Damn, do I look that scary that he's so scared and nervous?

"I'm sorry for everything I did Kimberly, my intentions weren't to kill Alex. I love Alex and I would be sad if he were dead."he started and I chuckled.

"That's funny, so funny because you actually shot him. Didn't you think you could have fucking killed him? I just don't understand why you would do whatever you did, even if Xavier came at you with the stupid reason to kill Alex, you shouldn't have done it."I said firmly.

"I know and I regret that so much. I just wish time would turn back and I change everything."he said holding his head down in shame. I clicked my tongue and then laughed.

"You know, I don't know why your statement is so laughable. You are making me laugh Andrew and I don't want to."I said and then I suddenly stopped laughing and I looked at him.

"Stop wishing for shit that has already passed because of cause the wish will never come true. I lived wishing, wishing that my dad would one day come and stop all the things I was going through but as time went, I realized that it was just wishes. I didn't stop suffering and neither did he come. Yesterday, he wished he would turn back time and make it all stop but that's impossible. I suffered and felt pain and nothing can change that, not even his little wishes. Anyways, what I mean is, whatever happened happened and you can't change that shit. You shot Alex and nothing can change that and your silly decision caused you a lot. I can tell by just looking at you. You look like shit by the way, ooh I already said that but that's s great reminder. In case you forget and I see you next time looking like shit still because you can forget."I said all serious.

"I'm lost Kimberly."that's what he said after everything I just said.

"Do you expect me to find you?"I raised a brow at him.

"I know I'm in no position to ask for any of this but yes. You found me once you can find me again. I can't stop looking like shit unless you find me."he said but before I could say anything, Alex came in.

"My wife isn't doing no shit for you. Make that statement run continuosly in your brain."Alex said coldly.

"Honey, I thought I said you give us some privacy?"I asked him.

"And I did, but I am leaving for now. That's what I came to tell you. I'll be back before you know it."he kissed my forehead and then my lips.

"Where are you going?"I asked looking at his casual look. Obviously, he's not going to the office with a black t-shirt, dark blue jeans and snickers.

"I have to take care of something real quick."he said then he kneeled on the ground so that his face would be close to my belly." Hey, darlings, daddy is going out for a while so behave yourselves and listen to mommy. Let me not hear any complaints about you two from mommy okay?"he kissed my belly and I smiled. He looked do cute.

"Please don't stay up too late."I said feeling sad all of a sudden. I don't know what emotions I feel right now but it's not something good."please be safe out there Alex."I added maybe the statement will make me feel better.

"I'm always safe baby."he kissed my hair and then he stood and looked at Andrew. He was doing all those things without care that his best friend was watching." I'm leaving now."he looked at me and then he started walking towards the door.

"Wait Alex."I said running after him.

"Baby, why the hell are you running like this? Don't you know you are pregnant?"he asked angrily walking towards me to meet me halfway.

"Please be safe out there."I said and he nodded his head.

"You have already said that. Baby, it's not like anything would happen to me. I'm the Alexander Scott for heaven's sake."

"I know, I just want you to be okay. Come home soon."I said kissing his cheek.

"Okay, and make sure to not starve yourself."he said and I nodded smiling though I could still feel this thing in my heart. It was a feeling that was hurting me for sure.

Alex left and I was left with Andrew alone. I didn't even feel motivated to speak to him again so I just went and told him to leave if he would want to.

"Why do you want me to leave when we have not even had a talk?"he asked me.

"I don't feel like talking anymore. I want to sleep or maybe do something else other than talk."I said sitting down in the chair I sat on before.

"What's wrong?"

"Nothing, I just feel bad Alex left."I said.

"But I feel like there's more than that. Something isn't okay with you."he pried even further.

"Will you leave me alone damnit, I want to be alone."

"Okay, but I will not leave. I will wait for Alex so that we can talk. I'm not okay with him being mad at me like that".

"Whatever, suit yourself."I said and I stood up to leave for upstairs. I want to sleep.