It was hard to swallow down all what Susan was saying. He still couldn't believe that this was the woman with whom he wanted to spend the rest of his life. Where had he gone wrong? Why hadn't he noticed all this from the beginning? Why hadn't he seen that all she had been trying to do was use him and also bring the monster out of him? All she had been in love with all this time was his money and his position in the military.
Perhaps, his mother was right; Susan was definitely not the woman to wife. She was beautiful and all, but she was just the definition of bad news. She wanted all the wrong things when all he had to offer were the right things in a platter.
He knew that he still loved this woman and he loved her for good but she had hurt him so bad without bothering how he would feel and from the way she sounded now, it was obvious that she was still apathetic about what she had done. He had publicly disgraced him and his family and all she could give was a flimsy apology.
Sighing heavily, he swallowed hard as he looked into the eyes of the only woman he had truly loved a last time. He couldn't find the passion that used to be there anymore. As a matter of fact, her eyes were devoid of the sweet love for him that he had always seen there. She suddenly appeared like a total stranger to him now like he never really knew her despite having dated her for six years. Her indifference stung him deeply and he knew that if he wanted to heal, then he would have to let her go.
Healing would take a long time and would definitely hurt too; he might never even fall in love again since she had shattered his belief in love, but he knew that it would be good for his sanity to let her go, no matter how hard it would be.
However, he pushed a thought to the back of his mind that whenever she came back to her senses, realized her mistake and was ready to come back to him, then he would gladly welcome her back into his life with open arms because he doubted that there was any more space in his heart to love any other woman.
If it wasn't going to be Susan, then he was better off being single and might just end up having a baby mama in the future so that he didn't have to commit to anyone besides his child.
Then he held her shoulders and searchingly stared into her eyes as if looking for the answers to the questions that he was not bold to ask. Finally, he said: "Susan, I love you so much, but I can't force you to be with me since you alone know what you truly want... If being Major Ali's second wife will make you happy, then you can wear his ring, but whenever you realize that you were wrong all along and you're ready to live the life that I've always wanted for us and still do, you know where to find me." He turned and had barely taken three steps away from her when she spoke, making him pause.