Let love find you

Chapter two hundred and seven

"I'm scared that when I give him the attention he seeks, he'll go back to being himself. I do like the Mr Williams I'm seeing now. I'm just scared that I'll lose this version of him when I eventually give him my attention back." Anna said truthfully. The truth is, she'd been really scared. She was scared to lose Mr Williams. She couldn't also trust his goodness completely. What if he was just being so good so that he could get her attention? What if that was it? What if he goes back to being himself afterwards?

"Don't you think that doing this would just push him further away? I think you'll just push him far away from you if you continue doing this. I don't think this is right. You can't stop him by doing this. Things don't work that way."

"What do I do then, Vanessa? What if he continues being mean and wicked? Did you forget how he treated me before I was kidnapped? He was so cruel to me. One can never know with Mr Williams!"

"I understand you, Anna. I get where you are coming from, but you are doing this the wrong way."

"I just think that you shouldn't push him too far. What if you lose him forever by doing this?" Vanessa said, and fear gripped Anna's heart immediately. The thought of losing him almost made her heart stop.

"I do understand that you do not know his intentions yet, but at least, we're sure that he wants to talk to you, Anna. I think he misses you, and of course, I think he likes you. He just hasn't realised it yet." Vanessa said, smiling at Anna.

"The last thing I want now is to assume, Vanessa. He has never mentioned it, not even once. All he keeps saying is that he can never fall in love because he thinks that love makes us do really dumb things."

"Well, he has a point. Love does make us do really crazy and of course, very dumb things, and that's one of the reasons why it's such a beautiful feeling. He just hasn't realised that yet. He doesn't realise the beauty in being crazily in love with a person. He doesn't understand how beautiful it is to be dumb for a person because you're madly in love with such a person. He just doesn't understand yet. But I believe that he would eventually. I believe that he would." Vanessa smiled at Anna again, but this time, her smile was a sad one.

"If only I can find someone who would love me wholeheartedly...if only!" Vanessa felt tears around the corner of her eyes and she blinked them away.

"Oh, dummy, you're crying again." Vanessa scolded herself for crying.

"I believe that you would find that person, Vanessa. I strongly believe that you would."

"You don't have to make me feel happy, Anna. You know, there are just some things that you have to accept, even if you don't want to- or even if you do not like them and my finding love is one of them."

Anna's eyes flickered and Vanessa creased her brow, wondering what she wanted to say.

"Maybe you haven't found love because you've been searching for it! Yes, Nes! That has to be it. You've been searching all your life when you should be waiting for love to find you instead! Yes! That's it."

Vanessa narrowed her eyes at Anna, she looked as though she was trying to comprehend what Anna was saying.

"So, you're saying that I've been searching for love the wrong way?" Vanessa asked to be sure of what Anna meant.

"I'm saying that you should wait for love to find you instead. I think that is where you have been missing it all along, Vanessa." Anna said, smiling at Vanessa, opening her mouth a little.