CHAPTER ELEVEN – Never-Ending Problems
I know, you probably were disappointed that I did not release chapters last weekend but that's because I had to take down the novel because of problems and I had to change the names of almost all characters, except those people without issues. So, if you want to know which character is which, then just know that they still start with the same letters.
Selena's account was disabled. During that period, she went on and texted her ex (not me) about something I cannot mention and she did that because apparently, she needed closure.
Now, here's the thing, after the incident with Selena and I, Selena's aunt was told to report if at all Selena does talk to a boy on the phone (Or at least, that's what I know)
So, Selena was texting him using her aunt's phone and her aunt told her parents that Selena was talking to a boy. Her parents found her and got the phone and read the chat. The number wasn't saved on the phone so when she was asked who she was talking to, she said she was talking to me. This was on 28th March, 2022.
On 2nd April, 2022, my father came to my room, as I was studying, and he asked me what I was doing and I said I was studying. Then that was the time he told me that Mr. K called him to say I was still talking to Selena and my dad even told me that Mr. K had to whip Selena for talking to me.
I was so surprised when he mentioned this and I denied that, because I hadn't spoken to Selena in days. On 3rd April, 2022. She enabled her account and texted me.
Of course, I didn't care about anything else but the reason as to why she lied to her parents and said she was talking to me. That was the time she explained to me that she needed closure and all. I was upset because she did lie and say she was talking to me. But, eventually, all that was over and Selena and I continued talking.
If you follow the music (beats) I release, you may see one titles 'Just Like Her' I wrote that song specifically directed to her and I said I'd record it in my friend's studio in 2023 (This Year) But up to now, I haven't. I only have the beat online.
You may want to see the lyrics to the song, so, here they are:
"I can take a beating, I'm just like her
I love to chat, I'm just like her
I'm mostly indoors, just like her
Just like her
J-just like her
Yeah I know I'm just like her
Turned all the girls down cause I like her
Spending all my days, with her
With her
W-with her
March 20 ain't a day that I'll forget
Things went wrong on that same day
I Wish I could reverse time
Reverse time
R-reverse time
If this was my novel, I'd use the chord
Just to change reality
If I could, I'd rewrite time
Rewrite time
R-rewrite time
I can take a beating, I'm just like her
I love to chat, I'm just like her
I'm mostly indoors, just like her
Just like her
J-just like her
I can take a beating, I'm just like her
I love to chat, I'm just like her
I'm mostly indoors, just like her
Just like her
J-just like her
I'm loyal to one person just like her
If you ain't SK then you ain't like her
I want a girl who's just like her
Just like her
J-just like her
I'm gonna wait cause I want her
No matter long it takes
If it ain't you then it's no one else
No one else
N-no one else
I'm loyal to one person just like her
If you ain't SK then you ain't like her
I want a girl who's just like her
Just like her
J-just like her
I can taking a beating, I'm just like her
I love to chat, I'm just like her
I'm always indoors just like her
Just like her
J-just like her
Oh, I can taking a beating, I'm just like her
I love to chat, I'm just like her
I'm always indoors just like her
Just like her
J-just like her
Yeah."
That's the song and the beat is already online on all streaming platforms such as Spotify, Deezer, Apple Music and many more. She liked the lyrics to the song and well, yeah we continued talking.
She said she was going to disable her account and text me after she's done with school. On 26th April, we argued about something that I don't remember but all I remember is that she asked for my email address because she had something she wanted to send to me.
I refused to give her my email address because I don't share things like that with anyone. Eventually, I gave her the address and she sent a letter. One that was 2 pages long. I'd like to put the full letter in this chapter but because of privacy issues, I'll not put the full thing. Part of the letter read,
"Dear Gabriel,
I don't know why I do these things to you. I know my time with you has been limited but still, I waste it all on senseless arguments and all kinds of negative stuff. I always say I don't like unnecessary drama but I'm always the one causing it. All the petty fights and all, I don't even have a good reason for them. We used to joke around with each other but it seems like I take things too seriously and blow things out of proportion. I know you don't like what I do. At your age, you know a lot more than me, by far. That song you wrote, it made me happy .The fact that you felt that way about me, helped me feel better. You definitely deserve some respect. And I haven't given you any of that. (Name Not Mentioned) may have said you're self-centered but that's not
True. You always care for me and try your best to make me happy. That was selfish of me to drain all your energy into myself just to feel better. You have your own things to worry about and to deal with. The number one person in one's life is themselves. You've always been a good, loving and caring person in our relationships. Both in friendship and as a couple. I actually wonder why and how you're still here after all I've done to you. This is why I say its best we live our lives apart because I know there's something out there that can fill in the gaps. Just to make you truly happy and appreciate you dearly for your love. You're a special guy to be honest. You give everything you have but never get it in return. You do things for everyone else but people can't do the same for you. You love with your heart but people break that heart or just treat it like nothing. Iapologize for everything I've done to make you feel like I don't care about what you're going through or your feelings and state of mind. I neglected you and I'm really sorry. I'm sure you were expecting something like this. I hope one day you can forgive me and look past my actions and my words. Actions speak louder than words and all I've done is make it seem like I don't love you. I love you two months ago, I love you right now and I'll love you forever. That's a promise. I know your trust for me is quite shaky. I hope you don't forget me. I'm grateful to have spent that time with a special guy. I'm sorry from the bottom of my heart. I hope the day I text you, I'll be someone as special as you.
With love,
Selena"