Ranias_Heaven

" He is sunshine, I was midnight rain "
Just like that we were , and we met .
For me he was the sun in that gloomy town , he lightened up that dry empty desert and made it the home I wanna go back all the way for .
He leaned closer from my ear and whispered " I want you , I want you in the sweet old traditional way , and not the way that breaks your heart and cause you pain...wait for me "
I always admired my space and feared to be close from anyone , anything, until he showed up and made me want him so close , until ....Fate started to throw arches of "why we can't be together even if we are for eachother" on us , just to push the magnet that pulled us together away .
He said "call my name and I will be right to your face , just Call out my name Reena "
We were two lovers , in a gloomy reality were fantasy can't take over and reality is all that slaps you .

A kiss to my forbidden love : My Magnet

 ...you surely must consider his feelings as he is his co_worker and friend or whatever and it surprised him for sure .


I looked at her with doe eyes , and finally spoke :


_ I mean ...you are right ! but even if time goes back I don't see a different way for me to react to it ...it was a losing game from the beginning...we never really stood a chance . I really feel like a fool for letting myself hope a bit differently.


_ Nononoooo , please don't say that . Just because he is your brother's friend doesn't mean you can't be together, if you really like him and he likes you back ...then I'm sure you can make this work .


I smiled at her brokenly, and then my recent thoughts or doubts to be more specific lingered to the surface and got out my mouth like :


_ I'm not quiet sure of that anymore ...I mean , you remember Dina ? my sister's bestfriend? the girl I told you about who made us talk ? 


_ I feel kinda suspicious lately from her behaviours and the things she told me ...


_ And what did she tell you exactly and did ?


_ She kept telling me about how he walked her home at night when a guy was stalking her , and even sent me screenshots of how he tells her his feelings and ups and downs ..ect , And the way she speaks to me about him now changed from before ....


_ She used to tell me we will make it work , but now since that incident and time passed by ....she lately whenever she sees me she asks me if I still have feelings for him and tries to let me down when she sees it pretty clear ...and whatever.


_Hmmm...so you feel like she's tryna steal your man ? you mean you are simply jealous !? haha


I shook my head so hard denying her claims and answered:


_ Nooo , it's not that . It's just that ....She might be the one he is interested in , I mean why wouldn't he ? she's pretty , friendly , and most of all ... it's easier with her ...look at us ! from day one we broke haha ...it just feels like they are for each other and that's what saddens me I guess ...and to be honest yes ! I do feel a bit jealous ...but in a different way ...maybe I envy her more because she could have it easy with him if they like each other , while I'm on the other side and my jinx in love Can't.


My Personal Doubts