I expected everyone to feel disappointed upon hearing what I really felt and thought from the start. I knew I might hurt them, and the same goes for myself, but I have to be honest with everyone at all costs because I have to straighten things up. I don't want to regret things in my current life anymore. I don't want to have any other burden before fighting an impossible battle.
I focused on informing everyone about what happened during my absence, then burst into tears, asked for forgiveness, and told them I was initially tempted to go back to the place I used to live in my previous life. I told them everything on my mind without looking at them, fearing the sight of even a slight disappointment in their reaction.