CHAPTER 45

　　A lot of thoughts were going through my mind. Did I have the heart to use him for revenge? That’d mean hurting him. Why was I even scared of hurting him? he has always used every chance he has got to hurt me.

　　But doing that would be so heartless. Thinking deeply about it discouraged me. I shouldn’t be thinking of something like this.

　　There are lots of other ways I could have revenge... Well, not lots, but there might be a way apart from this. There must be a way.

　　No! There isn't! This is the only way!

　　There is, actually. Two voices argued in my head. “What do you want here?” I asked immediately as we parted. My voice was meaner than intended. He looked taken aback by my sudden tone.

　　I shouldn’t have hugged him back.

　　I hated how my body reacted when he was close to me. I wish I have full control of my body. I once did, but suddenly I didn’t.