JEALOUS (THIRTEEN)

This morning I woke up with my head banging so hard it was about to burst. I felt like I was being beaten by dozens of very heavy hammers, to the point that the back of my head felt really excruciatingly painful. I seem to have missed something last night. But what? The last time I remember is eating ramen with Jayde and drinking beer. After that I don't know what happened to me anymore.

"Good morning Ms. Ivy."

"Yes, good morning. Do you know where Jayde is now?"

Rachel suddenly stopped clearing the table. She turned to me, but her eyes were one of shock and annoyance. Oh well, she must be pissed because I'm looking for her boyfriend and I'm the only woman who sticks to her boyfriend a lot. But I have the right to do that right? Jayde works for me. And now I want to know what I forgot last night. I could have done embarrassing things in front of him. The worst I could have said all my disgrace so far in front of Jayde. Oh God, I hope that doesn't happen.

"So where is Jayde now? You don't have to worry because I won't take Jayde from you. I just want to ask him what happened last night that I ended up in my bed now."

Rachel seemed even more surprised by my words. Oh to hell with her. I didn't need to explain anything to her about me and Jayde. She knew for sure that I was betrothed to Axel and I couldn't possibly have a special relationship with my own driver.

"I think Jayde is still in his room."

Rachel still lowered her head and refused to look at me. Yeah I know that she's jealous of me. It's normal. But I don't care, after all Jayde is my employee here, and this woman too. They really shouldn't be involved in a complicated relationship when they're both working at my house.

"So Jayde is in his room? Where's his room?"

Honestly I never set my foot in the back building, where all my workers live. Ah, I guess that's a little rude to hear. So I never went back to see where all of my dad's employees lived. I'm busy, of course! And I don't have time to do spot checks at their homes.

"In the farthest room on the west side."

"Ok, thanks."

I quickly got off my bed and left everything in a messy state. My blanket had even fallen in half on the floor, my sheet was very wrinkled and several sides had been torn from the bed slip. God, what did I do in my sleep to make my bed so messy? But never mind, it's Rachel's job to tidy up all the mess in my room.

I walked down to the first floor and then pass the hall and kitchen to the connecting door to the back building. The maids were cooking and cleaning when I walked past them smiling every now and then as they greeted me. It seemed they were a little surprised to see me suddenly appear this early at their place.

"Ms. Ivy, what are you doing here?"

Two maids were surprised to see me suddenly set foot in their house. They must not have thought that I would be standing in their house. But all this belongs to my dad. Even though I have never even set foot here in my twenty-three years of life, no one can stop me from coming here.

"I'm looking for Jayde, do you know where his room is? Rachel said it was on the west side, the room at the far end."

"You walk straight to the left, the door at the end is Jayde's room. This morning I haven't seen Jayde come out of his room, even though he usually gets up early."

Really? What made him wake up late this morning? Did that have anything to do with me last night? Hopefully not because I'm still afraid if it turns out I've done strange things in front of him.

"Okay thank you."

I gave them a fleeting smile and walked towards the direction they pointed.

Turns out the back building wasn't as bad as I thought. There are many rooms where my maids sleep. This place is like their private home while working at my house. It looks like a motel. My dad was kind enough to them, building this building as their residence. The rooms here are quite large and are equipped with a bed, wardrobe and a small wooden table. Dad is very kind to give them a decent place to live, even though they are not part of his family. But I think they are part of my family now because they have served my dad and me for so many years.

Huh, why am I discussing them now? Doesn't that have nothing to do with my purpose in coming here?

"Jayde..."

I tried to knock on the door softly while glancing left and right. I just realized that this hallway was deserted. There was no one here, and I was the only one standing at Jayde's door. Perhaps the maids were busy in the main house doing their chores. And Jayde was still sleeping in his room while his boss had been standing in front of his bedroom door like this. Hmm...great!

"Jayde, are you in there? Get out."

I shouted once more. This time with a louder voice so that if the man is still sleeping in there, he will hear my voice and immediately open this locked door.

Wait. The door is unlocked? I thought the guy would sleep with his door locked, but he didn't! Wow, did he do it on purpose to make it easy for Rachel to get in? Ahh... why did I even think about that? My brain is now completely in error because of the damn Alscot Silas and also the annoying Axel Krueger!

"Jayde, where are you?"

When I stepped into his room, the first impression I got was that he was a clean and tidy man. His room was not like the men's room I had imagined, messy and dirty. Jayde is a tidy man with simple tastes in that he doesn't add much knick knacks in his room, except for a wardrobe next to a small cupboard which does what it does, I don't know. Then Jayde has blue sheets that wrap around his bed very neatly. Two pillows, one of which had the indentation of Jayde's head, were neatly arranged on his bed along with a folded plain white blanket. Tsk, Jayde is a man who likes cleanliness.

Everything in here is very organized. I like it. Maybe Jayde is one of thousands of men who are very rare to find. Luckily for Rachel or any woman who will become his wife one day, because apart from being neat, Jayde is actually a nice guy. He respects women, and his attitude is also very gentle.

Why didn't dad set me up with a guy like Jayde? Abundant wealth does not make a person better. Sometimes it's the other way around. People with a lot of money become very evil. Precisely people who do not have abundant money can actually be kinder and polite. Maybe it's because they are used to working for other people, so they can humanize humans better, than rich people who can't respect other people whose position is not on their level.

"Ivy, what were you doing in my room?"

"I, kyaa… why are you half naked like that?"

My goodness, what did I just see? Jayde with a white towel wrapped around his hips curved into the gap between his thighs and his upper body was perfectly muscular. Ah no! Since when did Jayde have such amazing muscles?

"I just took a shower. Why are you suddenly here?"

"I didn't know you were taking a shower, I was looking for you."

I turned my face to the side. Trying not to be tempted to turn towards Jayde and enjoy his tantalizing body. But unfortunately the corner of my eye can still see a bit of his well-built body that is walking towards the wardrobe to pick up his clothes.

"You should have asked permission before coming into my room."

"How can I ask permission if you are not there and the door is unlocked. Why didn't you lock your bedroom door anyway?"

I exclaimed in exasperation on his bed while still turning my face to the side. I can feel a sudden nervousness overtake me that I feel my hands are very cold now.

I think I'm too tacky because I'm not used to all this. I haven't had any boy friends in the past, but I do have a lot of male business relationships.

Sounds exactly the same, but it's different. If it's a business relationship, our business is only in the office, while boy friends, I think it will be more than a business relationship because of course I will spend more time with friends than business relationships. Like Jayde and me. We have more time than I have with Axel. Huh, why is that guy again popping up in my head? Don't I have a lot of business relations apart from Axel? Well let's just say I'm a little disappointed with his attitude that I'm so frustrated like this.

"I never locked it so Albert wouldn't have to bother banging on my room whenever he woke me up."

"I thought you did it so Rachel could come in here any time she wanted."

"I told you Rachel never came in here. No woman has ever been in here except you."

"What? So I'm the first?" I was shocked and gawked at him. It was hard to believe that Rachel had never even been in Jayde's room before. I think as a couple they would sometimes spend time together here.

"You must not be serious, Jayde. How could that possibly happen?"

"Why? You seem surprised to know that."

"Of course I'm surprised. I thought as lovers you'd be making love or doing something here."

"Tsk, get those dirty thoughts out of your brain."

"I'm not dirty-minded. Those are things that often happen between lovers."

"Tsk stop this nonsense. How long are you going to last in that position? Doesn't your neck hurt?"

"Are you dressed now?"

"See for yourself."

Suck! What if when I turn around he's still shirtless? Was he purposely trying to show off his checkered abs in front of me? He wants to make me drool from admiring his body, huh?

"Well, this is better. You make me nervous with your half-naked body, especially when it's just the two of us here."

"Of course, everyone would be busy in the main house at this time of work. What did you come to my room for anyway? Don't you always tell others to summon me?"

"At first I really wanted to send someone else to call you, but suddenly I want to come here. You know, I've never even set my foot in here. This is the first, and maybe also the last because I don't want to risk seeing you shirtless again," I said angrily.

Jayde just chuckled in response to my answer and he sat down on a small wooden chair not too far from the bed I was currently sitting on. But I really appreciate his courtesy. Once again I say that Jayde is a good man who never takes a chance to please himself. He respects women very well, and I was deeply moved by that gesture. Thanks to dad who has given a very good driver like Jayde.

"Oh sorry for last night because I had to carry you to your bedroom. You were drunk and started babbling incoherently."

Ah now that I remember, my purpose in coming here was for that! And suddenly all of that disappeared after I saw Jayde's bare chest. Stupid!

"I'm here for that actually. Did I do strange things last night, oh don't tell me I did? Why did your face suddenly turn weird like that?" I accused loudly.

Seeing his face that seemed to be hiding something made me sure that last night I had indeed done strange things. My God, my pride has completely crumbled under Jayde's feet. That man knows too much of the other side of me which is very embarrassing.

"Actually yes, you do strange things. Last night you wanted to kiss me and say that my lips are very sexy."

"What! You're not kidding or trying to trick me, are you? I told you that?"

Jayde nodded confidently in front of me, and suddenly my head started to grow dizzy. I knew that being drunk would be more terrible than anything. I really shouldn't drink too much beer because I really can't handle alcohol. My body sucks, and can't tolerate even a drop of alcohol. I can't imagine what it would be like if I was faced with a small glass of high alcohol, maybe I would die immediately.

"Other than that, did I also do other strange things?"

"You say my lips are sexy and my eyes are full of stars."

Well, my pride has indeed crumbled under Jayde's feet. How could I ramble so embarrassingly like that? My head really hurts now. I did something Jayde will never forget. God, I'm so embarrassed to appear in front of Jayde. I shouldn't have come here and tried to ask.

"Hey, calm down, it's no big deal. You're drunk, so it's out of your control."

"But it's embarrassing. It's really not even worth doing. I feel so humiliated now. You see another side of me that is terrible."

"Don't worry, I won't tell anyone. Now I know just how stressed you are with all this life."

"Yes, I did feel it."

I don't know since when, I didn't realize that at this moment Jayde was crouching in front of me while trying to calm me who was having a panic attack. I'm not sure Jayde has said everything, that guy still seems to be hiding a lot about my embarrassing behavior last night. But I also can't bear to hear it because it will only make me even more embarrassed to meet Jayde.

"Don't think about it too much, I never took everything you said seriously. You were under the influence of alcohol last night."

"I'm sorry, I must have said some stupid things to you."

I reflexively hugged him and cried on his shoulder. I'm really ashamed of my actions last night. It was the first time I was barbaric in front of a man. So far, my dad never allowed me to get close to any man, and only Jayde was the only man my dad allowed to be close to me. So now I feel so ashamed of all the things that Jayde shouldn't see from me.

"Ssshh... it's okay, don't cry. Ssshh, I hate to see you cry Ivy."

"Jayde..."

Did I just hear a woman's voice? But who?

"Rachel?"

I quickly let go of my arms and wiped my tears. In the doorway, I saw Rachel looking at me and Jayde with a hurt face wringing her hands nervously. Have I made a mistake again? Oh no! don't say that that woman is jealous of my very spoiled attitude towards Jayde.

"Sso-sorry to interrupt, but Mr. Axel is currently waiting for you in the living room."

What else is this. Axel! The man I had forgotten from my mind. The man whose name I will soon erase from my husband's list is suddenly looking for me? Hmm good. Hopefully I still have some good acting skills ahead of him after what happened to me this morning.

But about Rachel, I feel bad for that woman. Really she shouldn't see me crying on her boyfriend's shoulder this morning. Especially on his lover's bed. It must hurt her. I'm sorry Rachel, I didn't mean to monopolize your boyfriend. But I just need Jayde to be my support when I'm fragile.

"Go meet Axel, I will explain to Rachel what really happened."

"Sorry for making Rachel misunderstand."

"Don't worry. Rachel will be fine. Go. Don't mind us."

Jayde smiled sweetly at me, giving me the strength to meet Axel this morning. Thank you Jayde, thank you for everything you have done for me until this moment. I love you, my friend.