hate that I love you
JENNIE POV:
eonni~~eonni~ eonnni?? EONNI!!!... what the hell!! what's with her calling me eonni?? is she serious??... here I am fighting over myself thinking how can I make put back to the way it was before for the both of us and she act like nothing happened and calling me eonni??
--lisa went up to her room to change and were waiting for her since rose asked to eat lunch together..
-rose noticed my frawning eyebrows and come closer to me-
ROSE: hey~~ whats wrong? aren't you happy that she greet you?
JENNIE: she called me eonni....
ROSE : yeah.. and??
JENNIE: roseanne! she....called..me..EONNI!!!
ROSE: I know!! what about it??
JENNIE: why would you call your lover ''EONNI""???
ROSE: correction.. "'EX LOVER'' ~~
-jennie glared at rose'''
ROSE : oops .. sorry.. anyways.. isn't it better than she ignores you??
JENNIE: but-- (was cut off)
LISA: sooo.. what do you want to eat?
ROSE: aren't we going out??
LISA: nope~~~ I'm tired,, lets just ask the cook to make us food okay...
(walk towards the couch and sits beside jennie) also we have dinner with father right eonni??
-there she goes again--
JENNIE: uh-uhhh ye-yeah...
--Its still not sinking on me whats going on and the approach she's giving me...I'm kinda happy that she's not ignoring me but her calling me that,, she;s up to something.... I'm ready to bump my head when I noticed lisa looking at me and turn her attention to rose when I looked back at her,,
and an idea pop out my head,,
''alright lisa,, lets play your game.''I'm not sitting her letting you call me eonni... you should start calling me ''LOVE"" again.. smirked---
JENNIE: lets go,, I will just cook for us... (hold lisa's hand) can you help eonni??? (smile)
LISA: uhh- su-sure..(trying to pull her hand)
-jennie tightens her grip and rose just following them with confused look---''lets see how long you can keep this up..
AT the KITCHEN
-jennie is looking at lisa's confused face while slicing some onions,,
-''hmmm.. lets give it a try shall we~~then she smirked,,
JENNIE: OUCH!!
-lisa unconciously run towards jennie and grab her hand,
LISA: did you cut your fingers??? (holding jennie's hand) let me see..
JENNIE: no-no its okay... just a small cut.. (biting her lips- ''I knew it'')
-rose notice jennie's actions and raise her brows to her...
LISA: (guide jennie to sit) sit there I will just get the medkit.. (run upstairs)
-after lisa was out of sight.. rose nudge jennie--
ROSE: hey~~ whats that drama your imposing hmmm??
JENNIE: what drama are you saying..? I have no Idea what your talking about..(look away)
FEW MINUTES AFTER-
JENNIE POV:
-lisa came back with the medkit,, she grab a chair and sit infront of me,, like so near at me that I can smell her,, I can't help but stare at her face,. she became more beautiful and like rose stated ''HOt" I bet she's a head turner,,, and I will literally turn thier head 360 if they try to steal my lisa from me,.. I let them snooping around my property when I was gone .. that will about to end..
LISA: let me see~~(held jennies hand) good thing its not that deep,,
''you're still too clumsy''
-I was surprised when she say that,, it was low but it is very clear in my ear--
i miss her touch,, she's holding my hand with care,, but she's also not looking at me...when before she can stop staring at me-- I want her eye's on me... like the way her eyes keeps searching me-- It makes me sad thinking that she's having hard time just by simply looking at me..
-while she's putting aid on my finger a statement came out from me,,
JENNIE: ''I miss you'''~~(looking at lisa sadly)
-lisa flinch and stop for a bit then she slowly let go of my hand.. and push herself back,,
LISA: uhm... I think its just gonna be fine...(stands up) and I-uhh ~~ I will sleep I'm really tired, you both enjoy your food.
-turning her back at me, before she can make a step to the stairs-
i call her out.
JENNIE: lisa~~ can we- uhm.... can we talk please~~
LISA: NO!.... not now,(continue to walk)
-looking down I just sat back and rose comes near me..
ROSE: its okay jenjen.. just give her time,, she'll talk to you~~
JENNIE: yeah... I hope so.
FF
-after spending time talking,, rose went home,,, and I received a call from lisa's father around 7PM that the dinner needs to be cancelled ..
TIME CHECK
9:35 PM
-I am at the kitchen infront of the fridge drinking some water--
a hand grab my waist,,, a long slender arm cornered me at the edge of dinning table,, sharing a dim light from the windows reflection all I can see is her doe eye's staring back at me--
JENNIE: ...lisaaa~~..
-almost whisper I call out her name but she did't respond.. she lower her head and burry her face to my neck,,, like she always do when she's sad,, frustrated, lost or simply just wanted my attention... her every breath gives hot sensation in my every being, but she's not moving,..
few more minutes has passed... she tilt her head,, and faced me.. peircing her eyes on me.. I move my head close to her
''she steps back,, without cutting the eye contact,,
I was about to touch her,,, when she turned and walk her self out..
JENNIE: lisa! wait!.. please talk to me...!.(following lisa)
-she didn't stop walking,,,until she reached her room.. enters and closed her door rapidly,
JENNIE: LISA!! (knocking) open up! please~~~,, I just wanted to talk!!
(leaning he head on the door) please~~.
-I heave a breath and detached myself to her door, I made one step back, closing my eyes.. I heard the door opens,, and a hand grab my arm,, the next thing I know I am being pinned at the door and her forehead pressed on mine...
'' I am loosing air and my lips are trembling,, I felt her thumb traces my lower lip,, swallowing every saliva on my mouth her face is getting nearer...
LISA: ..I hate you...(she breath out)
-before I could answer ,,my mouth is kept shut with her lips to mine,, god knows how long I have waited for this,, seems like hers a perfect fit to mine,,I open my mouth to give her access,, and she recepprocate freely,, shoving her tongue and explore my insides..
'''uhhhmmm.. I let out a moan,,
--we've been kissing for like 5 minutes now and we only put distance on our faces when were trying to catch our breath and start ravishing each other again,,my hand is gripping the back of her shirt, and her arm is still around my waist like afraid to let go...
-few more minutes when I felt her slowing down and detached her lips to mine..I open my eye to look at her,, then her hands snaked to my back to reach the door knob.. pulling it open,,
-still have her face an inch away from me.. she speak.
LISA: get out~~
JENNIE: what??(looking confused)
LISA: I said get out~~~
-her voice is calm and low but I feel no emotion on it..
JENNIE: lisa~~ please talk to me... I can explain everything .. just give me a chance..
LISA: get out please..
-this time she's saying it in a stern voice.
JENNIE: lisa...(trying to reach her hand)
-she steps back and open the door wider, but she didn't speak anymore. averting her eyes on me.. and still holding the knob,. I know she wont listen on this state so I've decided to give it a rest for the mean time. I walk out of her door but before she close it,,
JENNIE: I know your mad.. but If you can atleast find a way to lend me your ears to just listen to what I have to say...
-just then she closed the door. I leaned on her door..I was about to go to my room when I hear a muffled sound.. pressing my ear back to her door. its lisa.. she's crying her self out.. and like asking for it my eyes begun to release flowing tears..I want to hug her tight.. I have no right to complain of anything that she's showing to me,, because I am the cause of her tears,, her heartbreak,, I'm willing to accept whatever it takes just for her to hear me out..
--the kiss that we share is a good sign that she still can't reist me,, and it gives me courage to go on and keep on fighting for her,, Its not yet a guarantee that her father will accept us,,but as he mentioned once I can prove that I can protect and hold his daughter without hurting I may have a chance,, I will show him what I have gained and this time I wil not lossing my grip..
_I will continue to ask for your forgiveness even if you push me away.
I LOVE YOU,,,
MEANWHILE:
LISA POV:
-what am I doing.. I'm such a loser!!,, I have been scolding my self since jennie went out my room..,, it took a lot of courage from me just to let her go,,, my hands are trembling.. I felt so weak just simply being around her,,.. and whatever convince I do to myself that I hate her... I have to hate her for hurting me...but it went all vanished by the time I saw her face,,, her cat-eye looking back at me,,and the softness of her hand when I touch it.. it seems that i went back to square one,, however,, I don;t know if I will able to take,, whatever explanation she will tell me.. what if it will make me shutter again,,.. what if it will break the wall that I build just to protect myself from any pain that will cause me,,,, if that will happen,, if I allow her to penetrate inside me and find any soft part of me just for her,, i surely be running back to her,,
--I know I already lost it,, after our long heated kiss I forced her to get out of my room and cry my heart out,,, I wasn't able to contain it in.. all the wound and crapes that I thought was already healed is now bleeding,,..
-I have to fix this,, I will do it better this time, I know I am better than before, I should be,,.. I can't let her hurt me again.. I don't want to ahte myself again,,
I hate you,, and " IHATE THAT I LOVE YOU""