I'm distracting myself.
Pellio shook his head, his green eyes locking onto the dreadful, blue-tinged gate. The senseless actions of that cloaked participant had nothing to do with him.
No. Deep within himself, he knew that he would do anything to hide from the truth bubbling just beneath the surface, the terrifying realization that slowly clawed its way out ever since Asherah had shown him those nightmares.
Or perhaps... it had started to emerge long before that, when he had faced his own ineptitude against Adelphas, when he had accepted the cradle offered to him, and when it had been snatched away without him being able to do anything about it.