Chapter 62- the journey

The journey to my grandfather's house was nothing but excruciating. Made me remind of the day I was begging my father to return back just so I could properly say goodbye to Ryder.

The whole situation screamed to be an example of my life being nothing but a huge irony. The same place I had begged dad to return to, is the place I dont want to return to. Without my parents my hometown is going to be just a place filled with their memories. I am now dreading every minute we are nearing the place. I am feeling suffocated by the fact that it may bring back the memories that I am not ready to visit, making me miss them even more.

It is also ironic how the same person I had cried to my parents to take me back to, is now creating troubles so that he don’t have to see me anymore.

In a way this seems like I am escaping but I am too exhausted mentally, emotionally, and in some unexplainable ways physically, to even stay there.