Happy Days

The following two weeks felt like heaven.

I was seeing Mina regularly, we didn't cross the border to pry into each others' personal space but we were on casual talking terms now. I didn't ask her anything about the period between our last talk and now, and I never brought up anything about Juno. Neither did she.

Our time together was strictly limited to the band practice room, but I still noticed that I haven't seen her with Tasha for a long time now. Actually not even once since the new year started.

Of course, I spent countless hours at night wondering if they'd broken up, if that meant I now had any chance, immediately followed by self-scolding for getting ahead of myself. I really shouldn't think of these things now.

After a happy practice session, I packed my stuff, said bye to everyone, and left. My footsteps felt light and my mind was clear as I was headed to the shoe locker, and then someone bumped into my shoulder - well, I'm feeling good. I just let it slide.

But I froze like a statue when I heard the familiar voice behind me.

"Mina…"

I turned to look and Tasha was hugging Mina and sweetly calling her name. Mina kinda stood there without hugging her back and then our eyes met. I quickly turned away and just walked off. From the corner of my eyes just before I turned completely, I thought I saw Mina hesitantly hugging Tasha back.

Not this shit again.

I hated myself for feeling jealous. I absolutely hate myself for it.

But that's just how it was and there was nothing I could do.

I came home and just flopped myself onto the bed face down.

I felt so childish. I felt like a fool. Did I really get my hopes up? Seriously? What the hell was I thinking?

That's when I heard my phone ding with a message notification.

For a split second, I thought maybe it was Mina - I was getting ahead of myself again, maybe she was downstairs? Did she come to see me?

But it was a message from an unknown number and the notification showed '1 image attached'

Probably spam.

As soon as I put down the phone though it dinged again.

I checked the phone again foolishly hoping again that maybe this time it was Mina, but it was from the same unknown number, but this time the message preview showed "Stay away from my Mina"

My hands were shaking as I tapped on the message to read it, and I saw the picture that was attached to the previous message.

It was a selfie of Tasha kissing Mina. Mina had her eyes closed and was smiling as she was receiving the kiss, and Tasha puckered her lips forward to kiss Mina on her lips while looking at the camera. This picture must have been taken by Tasha.

I just really didn't know what to do anymore. I pressed the delete button with my trembling finger, held the phone in my hand clenching it fast, then threw it against the wall as hard as I could. The phone got smashed but I knew the image burnt into my head will never be undone.

Get lost.

All of you.