Chapter 5

Sehun's POV

I have no idea why I feel so down today. It's a nice day in New York. My schedule isn't that tight. I have every reason to have a happy mood but no, I feel down.

It's at times like these that I miss my hyungs so much. With them, I'm never lonely plus always happy. No matter how much we would go through, I would always automatically place a smile on my face.

On days like these, I also feel like I am betraying my fans. Some of them see me for the first time and I have to force a smile for them.

The thing is, I always want those smiles to be genuine. I want to display my true happiness to them because let's be honest, without them, We would never be where we are today.

Some of them just found us no longer worthy but these ones decided to stay with us and bring more people to our popularity. Anyway, if I can't be happy for myself, then at least I have to be happy for them.

I go to the preparation room. Almost everyone is gone. The room is empty, at least I thought it was until I heard a woman's voice shouting. Probably having trouble breathing too.

"Wow! Do you want to make a scene now? I have worked too hard to be ruined by a useless fan who gladly accepted to be used!" Justin Park?

"When I started dating you, I didn't even know you were an Idol. That shows how much you have to go to look down on people like me." And who is this woman?

"Then how about you try to ruin my name? You will get what you deserve!"

Should I record this? But then what for? Footsteps head towards where I am. I suddenly take the ear pods and pretend to be so busy dancing. Oh good hell! I don't even know what I'm doing.

The male footsteps expose themselves to my light.

"Oh, my God!" I bet his heart is not at ease at my site.

"Jesus!" I too am an actor, scumbag!

"Oh, I didn't know you were here." He forces a smile.

"Well, we were about to shoot a new song with Chan Yeol hyung so I was making some practice." I can sense how wide and weird my smile is

"Oh, congrats bro! I love your combo. Can't wait for it. Good luck," He gives thumbs up.

"I feel luck is already on my side." I nod.

"I have another event to attend. I'll leave first."

"hmm" I nod as he takes his leave. Now that I'm alone again, I can look as surprised as I am right?

The guy is wrong. But is it enough to ruin his whole career? But then why would you try to do a stupid thing with this career that you have?

And don't you have a mother? How would you feel if she was the one who was wronged this way? Aah! Sometimes, I understand women who think all men are dogs. Even dogs are beautiful when you teach them right. So what category should we place these men in?

"Don't pretend you're surprised when you can be just like him." My hands which I once placed on my waist are now behind me.

"You startled me," enough to look numb even though your presence has shocked me. How did I not think you were still here? Why am I so not thoughtful sometimes?

She sighs, wiping away whatever's left down her eyes. "Just pretend what you saw here was nothing. Can you do that much?"

"But..."

"Please! No buts! And please don't pity me. I know I look pathetic to have ever fallen for an idol. All you guys ever care about is your career. Still, please!" Her slim body looked so fragile, yet so beautiful. How can people look like this even when luck is not on their side?

Her legs stop moving, her body loses strength and almost falls. It would if I didn't catch her on time. I look at her face. Her mono-lid eyes are all watery while her thin lips look quite dry.

She opens her eyes, meeting with mine. The more I look at her, the more I think how dumb Justin is for leaving such a beautiful woman for his career. Idols like us don't often get this chance.

"We are not Cinderella and her prince, please put me down." Her attitude bro! Her attitude. It's strangely making me feel attracted to her even more.

I put her on the nearest chair and take a bottle of water from the table. I open it and give it to her.

"It looks like I'm here to take the blame for what Justin did." I sigh. I mean, what did I do?

"What?!"

"How else am I supposed to think?" I sigh and take her hand which she tries a little to resist.

"Men like Justin always find reasons to break women. It's not because he is an idol. It's because that's his nature. Even if he was just selling tteok-bokki from the streets, he'd still find a reason to leave you. Haven't you ever heard of idols who got married despite everything they knew they would go through? Did their careers get ruined? No! It was just shaken a little."

I get up from my crouching position. I look at her one last time before I leave. I close the door behind me. I take slow steps towards the entrance door. This time I feel like all my insides have popped outside of my body when,

"Were you practising?" from Justin Park ruined every piece of good vibe inside me.

"Hey, did you need to do that? Will you take responsibility if I die here?"

He takes out his phone and plays a video.

"Please! No buts! And please don't pity me. I know I look pathetic to have ever fallen for an idol. All you guys ever care about is your career. Still, please!" "Just in case you try to act like a man." He sighs as he gives a wicked smile.

"I've been an idol for ten years. Even if a person is to lose everything over a scandal, the truth always comes out. For our case, whom do you think this truth will hurt the most?"

His lips tremble, probably his hand is forming a feast. He deserves way worse than just feeling mad. And now I am sure this scandal is worthy of ruining his entire career.

Fuck him!