Chapter 24

After some time, Sehun knock on the door, "Is everything okay?"

"Just a minute," I manage to say. I look at myself one last time in the mirror to make sure I look good before opening the door, exposing myself to a worried Sehun.

"Is everything okay?"

"I'm sorry, I thought it was that time of the month already," God, please forgive me.

"That time of the month?" He frowns in confusion. I just giggle. I suddenly wonder how it feels like to be taken care of by him when I am like that.

"Menstruation, dummy,"

"So is it that time of the month already?" I shake my head as I look at him.

"So you are just fine? Nothing to be worried about?"

"Nope. Let's go eat. Your stomach is growling."

We go back to the dining room and I position myself on his lap again. My stomach suddenly craves pineapple and oranges, and I take a lot of them to my plate, feeding some of the pieces to him.

At this point, he can eat raw meat I swear. He eats like a hungry lion. No fork or knife or spoon like I thought idols would eat, like how Justin would eat. No wonder his body is huge. He takes care of it in every sector. He tries feeding me with fish, my head suddenly spins at its smell. So this is it, the dish that makes me almost want to throw up. I close my eyes as I take it.

"You don't like it," He notices. I just nod.

"Not all the time though,"

"Sure, so what else do you like here? You seriously can't just eat the fruits." His face shows concern. I take a bowl of rice and another bowl of stew. I take a piece of orange and squeeze its juice into it.

"Wow! And I thought I was the only one with weird eating habits," He says in disbelief.

"Do you have pepper?" He takes a bottle of it and hands it to me.

His arm is too long for a normal human being if you ask me. The rest of the time is spent with him enjoying my weird habits which I too find really unusual for me.

After a while of being bored and him working on his new projects. I decide to go out on my own for some air.

This side of the city is sweet and calm, with couples passionately kissing everywhere I go, making me smile each time I see them. They must be happy. I envy them.

My mind suddenly stops after seeing a small clinic for pregnant women. The glass window makes me see a little of what's inside. I step closer to it. I open the door and close it behind me. I look around, some are old, probably their fourth or fifth child, some are very very young and on their own and some are just like me. What am I doing here? All of this is tearing up my heart.

"Can I help you miss?" A nurse asks.

"Uuhhm," I fake a laugh as I sob, "Well I would like to take a... Pregnancy test?"

"Oh, so would you like to taste it here or should we just give you..."

"Yeah, just... Just give me that," Oh lord! Why did I even go out?

"Or just... Can I take it here? I don't think I'd dare to take it at home."

"Okay miss. And don't be afraid. Motherhood is the best thing that can happen to any woman, trust me," Just not to me. Not when I know who the father would be if this turns out to be true.

But I nod anyway. She is just doing her job.

After taking the test, I sit near two women who seem to be at least six months in the roll. "Hello," I give a small smile.

"How are you?" One of them with short hair happily smiles. I look at her, I can't help but wonder about the journey. Everything about it. I sigh at that thought and all the mixed-up feeling.

"So did you just find out? I'm Elena By the way," She asks.

"I am about to, Ha Ra" She nods, "Were you trying to get it for quite some time? My husband and I have been trying and the day I found out about the success was the same day I knew about his other kid," She smiles, clearly describing her pain in it, "I am so sorry you had to listen to my dumb story," she laughs uncomfortably.

"No, it's okay," I definitely needed this.

"So are you happy with it? The baby, I mean. Are you still going to love it even though its father did such a thing?"

"This is what I have always wanted. I would be a fool to hate her because of her father. He can live however he wants. This child is mine alone anyway." How I wish I was as strong and confident as she is.

"There is nothing to expect from men. I just found out that he had a wife and two kids. The worst thing is he had proposed to me, gave me the most beautiful ring only to crash me like this," She says in disbelief as she looks at her big tummy, her black American accent making the story worse.

"From my guess, you are not sure if the father will accept it, are you?" she asks. Her voice is now calm. I just shake my head.

"Don't worry. You are going to make it. A lot of mothers are raising kids on their own. The kids come out just fine," Elena tells me. I just offer a smile.

So I am not the only one with men's problems. But still, why did I have to be the one with this misfortune? It's like a family curse.

Grandmother, mother and now me.

After some time, the test results are out. The same dark-skinned, very beautiful nurse comes to announce that from where I was sitting. We go to her office and she offers me a sit, which I decline, "Just tell me the results,"

"You need to calm down,"

"I will come down when I see the test results," I tell her.

"Well," She sighs, " you are two weeks pregnant."

Fuck!

Fuck Justin!

Fuck the damn baby!