Could you explain further more?
[it's not the time for that, but you should trust me in this…]
Right…I need to settle first, I know nothing about this world, and it seems the situation is fine now, I will enjoy the moment as it is lasting, and prepare ahead of my time. I didn't notice it until I found myself holding ruby's hands tightly.
"don't worry, I will protect you" she reassured me.
"I am thankful, Ruby" she probably thought I am worried about it, but this is not a worry this is a determination, I would have to decline your offer, I don't want to see myself fall behind you, I want to be by your side…that's why I should reach you first or even surpass you.
"Gus, you know that my offer is still valid" now, my determination is replaced with fear, instinctively I left her hand.
"You know we are not in that relationship yet; we are just…" I don't want to say it…