you're jewel and not Cynthia, Cynthia means bitterness.

I tried to force myself to sleep but I felt his warm arm turn me over. I forgot he never sleeps without me in his arm all night, making me feel warm.

"Leave me be", I tried to roll away but his grip tightened. "Wife, rest".

"Jeff, I Wana know", I began already pissed. I'm not myself anymore, feeling like circumstances and emotional struggle is battling with me. I didn't know I was crying till I felt my cold tears run down my eyes I couldn't help it.

He rolled over me and I lay under staring at his face, his big palm wiped my eyes. "Don't touch me", I tried to beat his hand off my face and he smiled at me. this smile is so charming like I was a beautiful comedian already cracking a joke.

"You Wana know, what you already know, or you have doubts?"

I was surprised to hear him and at the same time confused, what do I know. "Why did you make me love you and then push me away?"

"Why?"

I heard myself asking. "jewel I love you, I will forever love you",