chapter thirty

Hayden 

"when c..can I leave? "

"we've already been through this before,  and I won't say it again, you aren't leaving! " I grounded out more harshly than I intended to. 

She flinched a little, I noticed she does  that a lot lately , even at the  slightest of my touch.

Her lower lips trembled as she blinked back tears

I stared at her for a while , she looked so small, fragile and innocent for all the shit that's happened to her . Shits that were caused by me 

She was right,  I really was a monster, I couldn't deny that.....no I loved it when people gets scared of me,  because only then would they obey, but it had snapped a nerve hearing it coming directly from  her mouth last night.  

I found that I didn't want her to think of me that way, it had.... 

It had hurt a forbidden place in me, that I didn't knew still existed..

It had made me felt so vulnerable and weak..