A moments weakness

Jerome

The moment Danica bit me, I knew bliss, I knew happiness. It suddenly felt like all my worries were gone.

My mate claimed me, Danica claimed me.

I felt her fangs connect in my neck and when she moved back and looked me in the eye, her eyes were full of tears just waiting to fall.

"I didn't know it would feel like this, it feels so surreal, I feel like I've accomplished something." Danica said.

I wanted to claim her right back, but like Danica knew what I wanted to do, she smiled and shaked her head sideways.

"You can't claim me, the mating bite would heal, only I can claim you."

Well, that was anticlimactic, I've been longing to claim her, looking for every opportunity to get her to submit when I should have been looking for ways to get her to claim me.

But I couldn't speak, the shock still held me down.

"I had no idea claiming someone would feel like this."

"No," I suddenly found my voice. "It only feels like this because we're true mates." I wanted to make that clear cause my wolf felt threatened with the idea that she thought she could claim anybody and it would feel the same.

She sighed, and kissed me, I kissed her back possessively as i sucked on her tongue.

She sighed into the kiss.

I moved back and held her head to stop her from kissing me again and she pouted, for a moment I wondered what had happened to Danica to nake her change so much.

"I want to know what happened."

Danica stiffened and moved away from my lap to sit on the bed.

"Is it okay if I don't talk about it?"

Oh, we were back to that?

"You know you can tell my anything, don't you?"

"We are mates aren't we, and since I've claimed you doesn't mean I have no right to my own privacy anymore."

"Of course not, you have rights to your privacy but.."

"Jerome please, don't let me regret this, I finally saw past the fact that mating isn't a bondage, don't make me think I thought wrong."

I reared back, "why would you think mating with me would be giving up your life."

"I didn't mean it like that," she soothed, "I just meant that I wouldn't be able to do or go whenever I want."

"Why would you want to leave me? Danica what the hell is this!?" I stood up from the bed suddenly feeling angry.

"You give me hope and then take it away in the worst possible way!"

"It was a moments weakness!" She shouted back.

I sucked in a breath. "So what you're trying to tell me is that if you claimed me by mistake, you didn't want to?."

"No...aargh.... I...stop putting words in my mouth, I don't mean it like that."

"Then how did you mean it? I was I supposed to take it?"

"Jerome.."

"No tell me, what the hell did you mean?"

"Jerome please." She tried to touch me. I moved away from her hand.

"I'm a fucking Alpha Danica!, Alpha of one of the largest pack in California, I deserve better that this." She whimpered but I was on a roll.

"You choose when to leave and when to stay, you say hurtful things and still I hold on to the hope that you would accept me, do you know why? Because I think you're just holding back because you've been hurt before, because you've been traumatized, because you're scared of being happy and then loosing it all, but it's not that is it?."

The tears where falling but I kept on talking, ignoring the way she whined and the way my wolf was pacing in distress.

"You're just selfish, you only think about yourself and no one else, you only think about how hurt you would and not how you're hurting others, I get it, you've been hurt, but who's never been hurt, you've been scared your whole life of someone from your past who you're very sure is still coming after you, you've been running and hiding your whole life, but have you ever thought of living in the present and letting go of the past, have you ever thought to trust the people who care for you, to give them a chance to carry the burden for you. I get that you don't want them to get hurt so you push them away, but have you ever thought that you pushing them away hurts worse."

"Jerome please.."

"No, I'm still talking....you know what— I'm tired of this, I'm tired of you giving me hope and then taking it back, I'm tired of you thinking you could come and go as you wish, I'm tired of pinning and praying for you to accept me, I'm tired of feeling like a failure."

I took a breath. "You can go Danica, you're free to leave, I have a pack who knows my worth, people who actually need me in their life, people who respect me, treat me like I'm worth something."

"I know." She whispered, still crying.

"I never actually thought when I meet my mate I'd be sad." I laughed.

"You know I was actually happy before I met you, I was told I'd be happier with my mate, but I'm actually sad, I'm miserable, I'm fucking miserable!!"

"Jerome please," she screamed, "don't say something you will regret."

I flinched. "I don't regret what I'm saying, Dania, what I actually regret was thinking you can get over yourself.

"I'll have Vincent get your cottage back to the way it was, you can get back to your life before I knew you even existed."

She whimpered.

I opened the door and walked out feeling her eyes on me as the door closed.

I heard things smashing but didn't turn back to look, she could go throw tantrums for all I cared.

And the only question running through my mind as I walked towards josh's room was 'would she really leave me?'"