Chapter 66

Amaia POV

I stared at my hands, tears prickling my eyes as I stared at it. It was all my fault. I shouldn’t have come here. I should’ve killed myself and shouldn’t have lived. I’d killed most of the wolves, and Sean.

I close my eyes. I didn’t wanna recall the look in his eyes and how he took steps away from me.

I ran away, I was back at the place that was once my home. The place that comforted me. I sat down with my legs hugged together. My hands for some reason was black. I didn’t know why, though I’d guess it was the curse.

Father, where was he? He didn’t come with us? I didn’t remember, he did say he would come to the pack. Maybe it would be after the fight and everything had been settled.

I missed him now because I felt so bad. And my hands were shivering.

He would’ve comforted me since he wasn’t here. The place did the Novak cave. My home. Because he had so many memories.

I couldn’t go back to the moonlight pack, I didn’t belong there. They would’ve known that I was the curse, or suspected me. If I go back there, what worse could happen to me?

They might kill me, burn me alive, or hang me on the tree.

That worse could happen. I was the cause of their misfortune. I was the one who did it. Killed them.

I sniffed. Why won’t he be scared of me, I was a monster. I cried softly. I couldn’t be there. It was a good thing I left.

He would be fine without me.

But why do I feel so hurt without him?

The sky suddenly changed, I stood up from the front of the cave that I was sitting on and stare at it. Something was wrong, I had the feeling. When I’ve got a feeling like that, it doesn’t end well.

Thunder rumbles, and I am frighted.

Zyair...

my hand gripped my chest as I thought about it. Why was he the one I thought about? And then it began to pour. I stretched my hand out and let the water touch my hands.

Zyair.. something was wrong with him.

Was he?

Argh!

My chest hurts. I fell back to the ground. Why does it hurt? His strength was in me, but why does it hurt so much?

I screamed as I held my chest and instantaneously, the pain stopped. And I felt something left me, I became weak at that point. It was gone, his strength was gone but why?

He was.. he can’t be.

I tried to stand but my head spins, my hands were shaky and my feet too. I couldn’t stand up properly. But I didn’t care I had to stand and go to Zyair. I want to see him and be sure he was fine.

I was certain his strength has left me, I knew it would leave but didn’t know it would be a day like this.

I groaned as I stood up, I wanted to go to Zyair but I couldn’t. He won’t wanna see me like this, what if I lost control this time, it could easily happen this time since I wasn’t as safe as I used to be.

I leaned back on the wall and hugged myself.

I was scared of what I could do, I’d seen the other part of myself that I didn’t know existed before.

It continued to rain heavily, and I watched. Something doesn’t sit right with me. But I couldn’t do anything. I wasn’t gonna go yet. Not to the pack. This place I had to hide for a while before I could think of facing him again. I just had to hope for now, that he was fine.

I spent two days in the Novak forest, he didn’t come for me, father didn’t come either. That was when I had the thought that something could be wrong after all.

I pushed myself up from the mattress that I was lying on. And walked out of the cave for some air. I wrapped my hands around myself.

He didn’t come for me, it was obvious then, that he didn’t want me anymore. His looks the last time he saw me were everything. And now I’d been more than certain.

It was sad but true.

“I thought I would find you here. Did I keep you waiting for long?”

I spun around when I heard the voice. Surprised and excited at the same time. I know he would come for me. And he did. I smiled. But did move an inch from where I was, he should come to me.

“I didn’t get to say goodbye and I wanted to say it now while staring at your pretty face. You’re looking stunning this morning. I’ve had a lonely night because of you. You should come home. We’re all waiting for you.”

“Why do you wanna say goodbye, you ain’t gonna leave me are you?”

He smiled at me and touched my face when he had come close enough.

“I wanted my strength to protect you for a longer time. Too bad, it couldn’t do much.”

I touched his hands on my face and smiled.

“I thought you were mad at me, you got disgusted probably.”

“Why would I be? I was never ashamed of you, and you know just how much I adore you and love you.”

My smile broadens.

“I like it when you smile, that’s why I want to see you keep smiling, you’re even prettier when you smile.”

Wasn’t it all too much?

My cheeks had all gone crimsoned up.

“I love you, little mate. No matter what and this isn’t your fault.”

I shut my eyes enjoying his warm hands, but then I couldn’t feel them anymore. His hands were gone from my face.

I opened my eyes immediately, where was he? He was gone.

I ran out.

Zyair!

I shouted.

Where was he? Why can’t I find him? He was here just a while ago. Was it all my hallucinations? It couldn’t be, it was way too real to be my imagination.

“... “I love you, little mate. No matter what and this isn’t your fault.”

In his last words, something was wrong. I ran back into the cave and grabbed my hoodie placing them on. I wasn’t dreaming when he came to me, he came to me. Zyair did...

But it wasn’t truly him, I’d found it odd at first but I couldn’t do anything because it was him and I was expecting him to come.

And there I was, without a second thought running out of the cave with my hoodie, for no reason at all. With tears in my eyes.

Zyair.

You’ve to be fine...

I don’t know what I would do if something happens to him.

I ran faster than I ever thought I would, to the moonlight pack. I’d to see Zyair that was the only thought on my mind.

“Where’s Zyair?” I shouted when I arrived at the pack. I was panting and my breathing was low. I didn’t give a damn. I wanted to see him. I was running all through without a break, even with my shaky legs I wanted to force my way in.

“We can’t let you in..” the warriors outside the pack house said to me. I wanted to fight my way through. I wasn’t in any way talking to anyone. I was ready to be violent just to get in.

“Talk to Creamy, tell him I’m here,” I said.

“Let her in..” Creamy stood by the door and watched us. They immediately paved way for me and I hurried in like I was being chased.

“Where’s Zyair?”

“Why did you run away like that?”

“Where’s he?” I pressed.

“Are you okay?” He asked concerned. Can’t he see I’m in haste to see him? What was all this question? He could ask me later on.

“Let me see him..”

“There’s something you need to see first. Amaia Roger.”

My jaw dropped and my eyes popped out. What did he just say? I had always wondered what the R stands for. The name that was drawn on my hand. And hearing him call my name, sounded strange. How did he know about it, was it truly my name? Was it Roger? I’d so much to ask.

“You might wanna see them.”

“Who?” I cracked.

“Your parents.”

How should I feel, I honestly had no idea how I felt at that moment. I just stare dumbly at Creamy.