It's been ten years now and I've programmed my brain to forget her little did I know that I was deceiving myself.

Things changed when I saw her.
She looked different. She wasn't the same little girl I had fallen in love with. She was now a grown woman.

She was gorgeous.
I needed her beneath me just for one night. I'd get her out of my system and move on.

That was probably a lie.

Months later.

Here I am drowning my sorrow in alcohol on my last night as a single man.
I was getting married to a woman I never truly loved.

Tara gave me a shy smile as she approached the aisle with her father.

Kelsey looked away and ignored me.

I was about to slide the ring on Tara's finger and her father's voice stopped me.

"Stop."

I turned around and faced him.

Tara grabbed his hand angrily.

"Dad what are you doing?!"

IN MY DARKEST HOUR YOU ARE MY LIGHT

I mostly spent my two weeks living indoors just laying in bed, watching TV, listening to music and stuffing my face and that kind of became my routine.


I tried calling Sasha multiple times to try and apologize to her but she never answered any of my calls and I honestly think that I've lost my best friend for good this time. I took her advice for granted and now she walked out of my life because I can't handle my shit. The mere thought of her broke my heart and I just wanted to cry all day.


 Jane would occasionally come to check up on me but I kept assuring her that I was fine.


"Are you sure that you're doing fine? Jane asked in a worried tone.


" I could spend the night Kelsey just to make sure that you have all the necessary care."


Jane was a good friend but I was doing fine on my own.


"I'm fine Jane and I really appreciate everything you're doing for me thank you."


CHAPTER FORTY FIVE